I realise my blog have been very very full of words......Hence....

Shall put up some pictures...

My Darling niece...

I'm not the mother for goodness sake..

Though she does look like me when i was young..

Damn those aunties...
Do i look like a mum to you??!!

I know......I sould never cam-whore during working hours...Especially in the toilet..But i can't help it...IT'S FERAKING BORING!!!!



Fuck the eyebags...Geez...

My Boy and his Sister....

Mindgames??!!

Purpose of the hearts is not to show my love for him..

It's just to hide his nippies...

Before someone comes after me for posing indecent photographs..

Creation of Charmaine during Pharma class..

And no..this sotong head looks nothing like me..

But it's cute....

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I skipped my Retail UT 3 today...

Had wanted to go..

But don't see the point to rush to school just to take my UT..

Not going to school tml either...

Retail module again...

I've got doctor appointment at Tan Tock Seng...

Shall go to Baby's house early tml morning..

And SLEEP...

Yes...To sleep..

And have him accompany me to the doctor and off to buy my shoes for work...

My heels like broke yesterday while i was going for my dinner break..

Damn malu can..

And the stupid woman do nothing but said "Oh Dear"..

I think you could have helped just by shutting up...

Could have made do without your comments thank you..

Don't ask me how i broke it..

I really have no idea..

Walked halfway and "piak"..

Off it went..

So auntie Jocelyn helped me pluck the other side out..

And i went from walking...to shuffling the rest of the day..

Helped Chee Keong with his perfume sets...

Wrapped them with ribbons...

Made alot of "balls" or whatever u call them...

and i had the rest of the promoters asking me to make for them..

I bet the whole sales floor is full of my "balls"...

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My Boy is out riding his bicycle again..

I wonder if he could even open his eyes tml..

Got this feeling that i'd be going alone at the end of the day to the doctors...

Am pondering over what to give him for his birthday next month..

Though he says it's alright to not have any gift as long as i'm beside him..

But it doesn't make sense for me to go empty handed right...

I expect something big on my 21st from him..

Hee hee...

Better not pin high hopes else i'd be very disappointed by then...

Guess i'll hand make some placard for him since i'm kinda poor...

Hmmm...

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Keep having this urge to go for the SIA interview again..

COX i really don't know what kind of job i should go for...

HAix..

Wad should i do?

I need to find a job....
Right after i graduate...
Zz...

Went Dbl O last sat after hubby's daddy's birthday celebration...
And met yx and hw there...
Haix...
Nothing to say about that...
Had a mixture of feelings...
Was happy that i met them..
But unhappy due to a whole string of incidents that happened...
So tired of life....
Kena viral infection last week and went to school for like only 1 day...
Never even go for my FYP....
For the first time i felt so horrible..
And yet no one bothered..
Not even my parents...
My bf can't book out and i'm left there..
Dangling...
Barely alive...
Worked on Sunday...
Freaking tired..
I was like a wlking zombie..
First thing my mum did was to kp me when i reached home..
Half dead..
And the next thing i know when i open my eyes..
My dad kp me..
As much as i wanted to rest at home..
I didn;t...
I left the house..
Not wanting to hear more rantings from my parents...
And i';m so hungry...
I guess everyone's left their classes already.....
Haix..
I want my pooh bear with me...

Geez...
I feel so shitty..
Kena flu..
And my whole body is ching like shit..
Plus headache..
So much that i skipped school and my UT..
Better still..
SCM UT...
The only module that i got D+ for my first UT...
Fark sia..
Baby's not feeling well either...
His back is pain and he couldn't even turn..
He was to come to my house to look for me..
But ended up..
Never...
Both of us sick..
Wonder wad's wrong with the both of us..
Tml FYP somemore...
Zz..

Happy Anniversary Baby...
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Having problems with my fucked up lappy..
Stupid free antiviruses
They are of NO USE...
Thought could uninstall them but end up cannot...
Thought nvm...
MAYBE they would stay there quietly..
But i was wrong
TOTALLY WRONG...
They popped out at the wrong time...
WORSE..
THEY KEEP POPPING UP..
Someone tell me how to get rid of this annoying stuff???
HAIX......
UT tml again..
SI BEH SIAN AH...
Today's Pharma UT confirm buang..
Heng UT 1's result not so bad....
But tml SCM UT...
DIE...

I haven't been going to school again this week..
I guess my friends are too used to not seeing me already..
And yes i know..i missed out alot on the lessons..
Hve my 6 Sigma UT later..
Opened up the 6ps and gosh...
I know nuts..
But nvm..
Still going for the UT...
At least got a grade..
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Have been keeping a look out for jobs already..
I'm totally at lost..
I don't what i want..
Geez...
Tot of going to another airline to try..
But the thought of my boy..forget it...
Tot of going for jobs at nightspots..
But..Thinking of both my parents and my boy..
Might not work out...
Someone tell me what to do...
Haix.....
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Caught the movie "The Coffin" yesterday at TM..

It kinda sucks..

Boy was bored to like duh..

And i keep getting shocks from the stupid sound effects..

It wasn't really scary but gross..

And i can't stand the sight of the actors with the horrible make ups..

Will have night mares..

But still..

Like a typical girl..

I hid under the jacket most of the time before the "things" even came out..

And boy was like teasing and laughing at me throughout...

Shit him...

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Came across this email that a friend sent me...

Doctor's Last Word....
A 20-yr old pretty, sexy and sensual girl went to see a psychiatrist.
'Doctor, I'm so angry at my boyfriend that I must call him Bastard. I
feel that he's gone too far, and he deserves it.'
'Hmm? Such a word is strong and rude. But may be you have your own
reasons. Tell me about it so that I can help you.'
'Yes, thank you, Doctor. There was one night...we parked our car
besides the beach and we were alone... and... he held my hand....'
'Did he hold your hand like this?'
'Yes, Doctor. Exactly like how you're holding it now'
'If it's only this, he doesn't deserve to be called Bastard. It means
he doesn't want to be separated from you.'
'Then, he leaned his body towards me... and hugged me...'
'Like this?'
'Yes, Doctor. Exactly like how you're doing.'
'It's not a Bastard.
It means he wanna stay forever by your side'
'Then he kissed me...'
'Like this?'
'Yes, Doctor. Exactly like how you're kissing me.'
'If its only a kiss like this, seriously you can't call him Bastard.
it means he adores you.'
'Then he put his hands inside my clothes and touched my boobs, Doc...'
'Like this?'
'Yes, Doctor... exactly like that'
'It's not behavior of a bastard. It means he wants to protect you.'
'Then he took off all my clothes... slowly... '
'Did you resist?'
'No. I let him do it, coz I love him...'
'Did he take off your clothes like this?'
'Yes, Doctor. Until I'm completely naked like now......'
'He still doesn't deserve to be called 'Bastard, because it means he
wanna learn about your body completely.'
'Then he kissed me and put his.... inside me and had sex with me...'
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'Did he do it just like what we do?'
'Yes, Doctor. Exactly the same'
'You still can't call him Bastard. It means he needs you.'
'But then he told me that he has AIDS'
All the staff and patients outside heard the doctor screaming,'
BASTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRD!'

I screwed up at my SIA interview on Friday..

Kinda paiseh to say..

But yes..

I was ousted at the first round..

Geez..

My group was kinda strong..

All ang moh damn power..

I was alright even before i went into the room..

But i went all jittery when it was my turn to introduce myself and answer their question..

The qn: What do you think is the most important aspect in customer service?

All our answers were like the same..

But the 2 that got selected..

They told stories and they got in..

Geez..

It wasn't that hard actually but i guess if i had more confidence and be able to express myself properly..

It shouldn't have been a problem..

While waiting for my turn..

I looked around..

Tried to smile at the other girls waiting..

But they seem...Unfriendly..

And that's it...

Huiwen is asking if i want to try Silkair..But that's like next year?

Hmm..

Maybe i could consder other airlines...

But i guess my boy would be damn happy if i have up this choice for good..

Colleagues are asking me to keep trying..

Especially my manager who is an Ex-SIA girl herself..

"Keep trying no matter what.."

Sounds easy huh..But needs alot of courage leh dey...

Perhaps at the end of the day...

Tgis is just not my cup of tea..

Since it was never my dream nor my ambition... :)

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It's tuesday and it's been a week and a day after she left this world...

Her news came out so big in the papers and yet we never saw it..

I didn't even know till Yuxin called me in the middle of the night on Thursday..

She passed away...Horribly..

That is seriously like no way a girl like her should pass on..

I remember the time when i first saw her in secondary school years ago..

She was that very very innocent little girl..

And she grew up fast..

And now...

This has to happen..

I was never close to her..

But we talked...

She's a friend to me..

I was stuned when i heard about her death..

But we have to accept it..

I wonder how her family is coping...

Supposed to go with Yuxin to madai to pay my respects..

But i had chalet the nite before..

But tt's an excuse..

I simply can't bring myself to go there..

Don't know why..

I just never liked to attend such things..

Anyway...

Rest in Peace girl..

Elizabeth Yau

27th October 2008....

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