~*~lalala~*~

Okay... I'm officially back to singlehood...Honestly, i knew this would happen sonner or later..it's just that i didn't realise that it will be like THIS long...1yr plus...going 2yrs...Goodness..How did i survive.. It feels wired as in the past whenever i'm out of love i'll cry like i lost my parents..but this time..i did not even shed a single tear...Is it because i am immune already or is it that it's no longer important to me on whether he sayang me or not...Though i feel down...but that is partly due to my deprived of sleep...Reach home at 11 plus last night and couldn't even submit my RJ...But good thing the fai give me B..wad's wasted is that i think i can get A if i submit my RJ..so sad...sent him my RJ..dono whether he will accpet late RJ anot...pray hard...
Recently just started "studying" at a marketing company..the people there are very young..The
CEO is only 32yrs old..and most or the BMs,MMs and MEs are all around my age, even younger also..and i met 3 familiar people there..Met sihui..my primary school buddy...who is the same position as me MA(p)...and to my surprise..jiahong...my senior from secondary school...and joan...hmm...i rmb her asking me to go to the interview a few months back...but i din realise that she may be working in that company and i confirmed when i saw her yst in the office...She lready a ME..going on to become a MM and me..still a MA(p)...muz faster close deals to climb up...ha ha..easier said than done... But i think handling this job and also my other job plus school will really tire me out..wonder if i can tahan..haiz...hope i can perservere on to excel there... If i can climb up to a ME in 2-3mths time, i'll be happy le.. that's like only 2 levels up..I CAN DO IT...ha ha..crazy...trying to motivate myself..STOP DREAMING GER....ha ha...Car..ha ha..money..gosh~i'm going crazy..stop thinking..
Today Azri's 19th birthday..As usual..The usual what-we-do-during-birthdays thing.buy a small cake from the cafe, poke a candle and sing the birthday song...ha ha...ok..not farney...

~*~happy birthday Singapore..~*~

A vice-president...How does it sound? Cool huh....But it's not when u r the VP of a shaky IG....which the attendance, honestly is like shit....And the people there...erm...generally ok except for the three council people...which one who happens to wear the same top and HAPPEN to be in dance IG ... Sounds as if she wants to take over the whole IG..which i feel is damn shitty...I think she finds the whole IG LAME...MISS if u find it LAME, the doors are ALWAYS OPEN for YOU to GET OUT!....FREAK sia..This kind of person....First time step into the IG meeting den give this kind of f**king attitude.... If there is an interview before we decide who come in...i SINCERELY hope that she WILL NOT get in..No wondr she lost i nthe student council's election thingy...hmm..ok.. i sound like i have something against her....and i think i do....but i believe i'm not the ony one...
Bck to what i was talking.... I realise that apart from the first meeting, the consecutive meetings we always have the President missing.....And during the previous one...that Eddie...I think he thought i was the President when i am actually not...Honestly, i'm just a dummy VP.... Though i volunteered myself, i just thought maybe can earn a little CCA poits or even make my CV look nicer... Since no one was willing den i volunteer lor.but i think i may have to end up doing loads of what was supose to be the Presidents job....that's like so sian la.....duh....okie..nothing to say..today's national day...the nation's birthday..a public holiday...which means a day of more sleeping time for me..hahaha..okie..i'm lame...Happy holies people...as if anyone is reading....



HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!

juz another post of complaint........

Jen called to me to ask me go citylink help out..but damn sian..so told hr today after sch got something on...actually nothing de....but end up hadijah msn me told me to mit her after sch to go to the Student Union de afternoon tea for IG Reps...Until 7.30...5 den start...thought of going..but really wait until i sian....so left at 4 plus and told hadijah tht i rushing for time when i actually gt nth on...sian..tml hab to work..jen told me september Taka square de fair we will have a counter downstairs..think she will throw me down ba...i don mind working everyday from 1st sept to 10th sept..but just don put me together with Yati..It's either she and someone else or me with someone else...nono to me and she..ALONE...confirm argue de....She don even know the difference between a subordinate and colleague lo...damn sian.... I'm her colleague... though i'm a part-timer, but can sh at least show some respect to me at least as a senior..And i don like pl to boss me around especially when that person is not even my superior..how i wish she can realise that her "xiao jie pi qi" at the workplace is making all of us dislike her..now i know why when she kena sabo at Esprit, none of he colleagues help her liao......Although i will show my "xiao jie" temper at times, i wun show it at work lo..but she like show everywhere..haiz..sian.....Don even think of bossng me around... Boss me around and i confirm argue with u.... wait till u r promoted to assisstant supervisor den say ba...which i think will never happen..unless chane supervisor.....sian..tml hab to work.....Hope that Fred will rmb dat stupid vcd on monday...damn sian la..no movie to watch.....Haiz..Sian..Go sleep ba~~

If someone were to ask me this question.."One word that best decribes you..."... I think the answer should be "PATHETIC".... For someone who fails at relationships, BGR...Friends..Or even Family...what other words can best describe me??? Failed relationships aside...... Family reltionships...Sometimes i really can't help but wonder....Am i even wanted in this family..... Why do i feel so extra no matter how hard i try to fit into the family....I try to sit down and listen and give my opinions during family talks..But whenever i start talking, i either get shot at or silent responses.....Of course there are times where i do get proper responses..but how many among all the responses that i got re like that....How pathetic can one be..... Like me??.... Trying to fit into the class seems to be another problem.... I don't think much people will realise that i am actully around just because i did not make much noise the entire day...just becaue i can't talk too much thanks to my flu and cough.....Maybe i'm more suitble to be loner.... I do have friends....but how many among my friends actually bother about me when they are with other friends...the answer..none... i'm not trying to complain.....i just need a place to pin down what i am thinkng of deep inside me.... Pin them down just before i go crazy burying all these things in my hert and bring them down to the grave with me..... I suppose i'm born a loner....bred a loner...and will die a loner.....


I sometimes just really can't work it out..Why does heaven mke a sport out of me everytime.....sick and tired of reltionships.....I don't understand why the curent one is like that....I tried calling him last night and didn't get through....And then i recieve a msg frm him just before i go to bed.... But why is it that the more i look at his msgs, the more uneasy i feel??.... I had a hard time trying to force myself to cry on my bed...... I have to relieve myself..and i still feel like crying now...but i'm in school.......the no-no plce for me to cry at... Why is it that whenever it's near to the end of the month, i can't find you...Why re you making empty promises.... I'm still girl no mtter wad....Of corz i nid to feel loved... I did not ask for your commitment...I did not ask for you to be alwys by my side...I just want a little of your concern and love and only a little of your time..What's so hard about that???...I'm really tired....tired of life.. tired of everything..................................












...TIRED...