Rants...

After last night I realized...

We are both no longer the same person we use to know...

Thinkings change as people grow...

I changed.. So I shouldn't be surprised that you changed too..

Seeing you holding on to another's hands and waist...

Honestly, just made me feel weird..

Probably was the closeness that we use to have for so long..

And the picture which i would have to face one day surfaced last night..

Caught me unprepared..

Maybe it's because I haven't fully got over it yet even though it was my choice...

But I have never regretted making that step...

Haiz...

D e c I s I o n s

Should I or should I not....

Richness or Poverty..

Which would u choose?

Being rich would mean having to swallow my dignity and may never be happy..

Staying in poverty would mean having to crack my brains every now and then to think of ways to solve the problems..

If u were me.. Which would u choose?

Happy happy

So glad to see him after 3 months...

Can finally spend some time alone..

Though timing is short n I smell like BBQ

But he delivered his promise to bring me to eat wat I wanted..

It's not e best.. But for time tgt.. It's still worth it..

:)))

Too happy to slp right now..

:)))))

I am back.....Hopefully

Everythings gone...

Gave up my boyfriend

Gave up my job..

Lost in life...

In a life hell full of debts..

I miss someone like seriously..

But i guess i was just a toy to him..

Fell for the wrong person and giving up the right one..

I'm just a bitch..

Had a boyfriend who loved me whole heartedly..

But i fooled around after the break up..

I'm a butterfly..

As what he said..

We are just not meant to be...

I had no regrets though...

Only thing is..

I'm wrong to hurt him like that..

And i'm remourseful..

Just hope he could think and turn for the better..

There's no turning back right now..

And i have no intention to turn back..

At least anytime soon..

As for the bunch of jerks....

As they are labeled as..

Are just to kill my time...

They are just nothing..

Probably the few that showed "care and concern"

Whether just faking or are real..

Could continue to be friends..

The rest..

Seriously..

Fuck off...

Going for a few interview tomorrow..

Hopefully i can start afresh and get out of this shit soon...

I've got sleeping company tommorrow.. :)

Hopefully nothing will happen between us..

He's the exact clone of me..

Same mindset..

Same shit life we went through..

But he's more cheerful..

Unlike me..

Negative Minded...

Hopefully he could enlighten me and brighten my life a little..

Shall move on to update my online business now.... :)

Which i hope could pick up...

penna was here

First and Second day of work

First Day: Reached at 7.34am.... but HR was late for work.... I waited hell 1hr for her.... didn't want to take a cab at first but I didn't want to be late so spent $8.30 on cab... Good thing lunch was cheap... Paid only $1 because of the subsidy of $1.30 from the company... pathetic though... Only one stall is available... The most economical and cheapest.., mixed veg rice... who cares la... E food is alright PLUS it's freaking cheap lar! In the office I felt so overdressed.... The rest even the sup are all in jeans.. Like WTF... Listen to her teaching me till my eyes nearly closed.... Omg..... Second Day: Raining day... Argh! Thought of wearing jeans but didn't want to be in the wrong dress code so I dug out my black old jeans(about to be sent to the welfare hm or something) and wore that.... Hell... I left y My house only around 7.30... 133 came so I thought maybe I could just hope inboard and off to work... Reached the correct bus stop.. Followed the correct people... I thought.. Till I followed them up the bus125... Bloody hell it's the wrong direction... Argh! Alighted at Aljunied and have to walk back in.... Halfway saw this bus stop.., 125 again... This time correct bus stop but I alighted too early.. Walk again and was late... Half an hour late.. Like WTF... finally gt my pass.. Stupid HR as slow as ever... Good thing the security saw me and told me... End up.. Because of the rain I gave up gg outside for lunch. Gd also.. My lunch only cost me $1.10... :) Countdown 26 mins to 5.18... Then off I go back hm.. :)

new phase of life

Today marks a new beginning... A breakup... And a new job coming on the way... I don't know if I'm happy or sad... All I know is my heart was both aching and jumping at e same time... Could be both a relief and a heartache I suppose,.. Relief cause I could carry on without liability ... Heartache cause it's my longest relationship till now... 2 years 9 months and 8 days.... I hope he could get up on his feet and live his life to e fullest... And e same for myself too....