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I nv knew a guy can be so scary unti i met him... He knew i have a bf le but he still cling onto me like superglue lidat... scary..finally got him away from my side last nite..i replied him dat i thank for his concern but his concern is really freaking me out..i think i hurt him by saying dat...I don understand wad exactly did i do to make him get the wrong idea...i'm no chio bu, neither am i ladylike...wad "potential" does he c in me????wierdo....Anyway...I'm really happy dat i finally reached him...called him last nite but his pone was off...den called him again juz now..he finally pick up the phone le..so happy~~~but he told me to call him 20mins later coz he's packing up his stuff to leave his office...i wanted to call but my family is eating dinner...so sms him to tell him i'll call at 7... but i called before 7 so when he pick up, he was having tea with his colleague so he said he'll call me later when he's in his car... ard 7.30 he called...so happy to hear his voice...den w ended the call ard 8...though it's short but i'm contented to hear his voice...he said he confirm will look for me when he come back next week... and he said we'll go to the movies... :)
Now waiting for his reply on sms~~ :)

~*~tOng b'Dae~*~

Yst went to Orchard after sch wib min,tong&wenqi den mit jie ying there...Went to Far East to walk walk....Den eat at Long John...Den saw one xiao mei mei~~damn cute...Lyk wan to play wib us..ha ha~~thinking of her pulling down her pants den pulling it back up while running to the toilet was damn funny~~~
After dat we went to Lucky Plaza to play pool~~ha ha~~first time c min and tong play~~ha ha~~don look lyk first timers lo..getting very much better...much much better dan me~~ha ha~~~ yst the balls lyk don listen to me~~ha ha~~Esp dat xiao bai~keep rolling into the hole~~ha ha~Den gt tis guy call kido~~dono how he play wan..can play until he bleed..ha ha~Very er xing....the blood flow...yucks...min say cnt even c the wound...He ask for plaster de tong oso gave him the whole pkt of tissue paper....her b'daegift~~gone~~ha ha~~
Before we left he approach us and ask for one of our number....Anyone of us..Den the rest of them juz turn.. i was the one standing juz next to him lo...so end up i gave him my number...the rest...no nid to say le........
I miz him!!!!Ahh!!!!Not yst dat guy.....is my nan ren......sunday....sunday..sunday.....

22ndMay2006

He finally "reappeared" again today le...He called me when i went to the toilet in sch...And he changd number without even letting me know until today...I tot he don wan me le...when i told him dat he replied me that if he don wan me he will say de..He told me his new job very stressand he may not stay long... and dat he's v sian there coz he don hab much frens...i can't do anything since i don dare take bus go in myself....even if i dare now is still sch days so can't go oso...too bad can't pe him....i'm missing him like shit.....2mths going 3mths nv c him le..hopefully he'll spare 1 or 2 hrs this sunday to pei wo a while when he come in to work...dono is it the 3rd or 4th of June is M'sia de public holiday....oso the first day of my holiday...really hope to see him...miss his perfume...miss his hugs..haiz...can do nth but miss..went to westmall and lot1 juz now wib yin min...i can't find a single pair of lack pants dat i like lo...it's either too ex or too big...XXXL...wear liao sure drop..ha ha....tml UT..damn sian...haiz..Enterprise.....double sin...miss today Danz Fusion de audition..heard alot of ppl went...but anyway..still waiting for Iko to set up her hip hop IG..rreally need to move a little..if not i'll grow fatter and fatter...scared later he don wan me den wd am i suppose to do??ha ha...better go slp early liao~~ha ha.....ENDz.....

I'm back...

Finally back to blogging....Been ard 1 mth plus after sch re-open le...sch hav bee ok but i still can't quite adapt to the system...still the same old loner dt i had always been...am i very hard to get long???or is it the fact dat i hab tis "stinky" face dat scares ppl away...dono la.....and i haben seen him for lyk...3mths....miz him alot....thanx to yin min....she fa hua chi den pass it to me..end up i oso fa...he shld be coming back these few days and hopefully will get to see him...Bought him 2 pair of thongs for his birthday....but kinda regret getting them...the cloth covering his "manhood" is erm..orange and the back has only one elastic band covering...to tink of it the colour is quite disgusting..but it's something new ba...usual price was $19.90 but after discount was $15 plus...hopefully i can grow to trust him over some time...I don wish to carry on lidat w/o much trust for him....although he did ask me to not consider him if i were to find a guy who treats me better,i can't seem to set my eyes on any other guy...how i wish i could let him know how i actually feel but seems impossible...i don dare to say anything for fear that he will flare up...since it's a known fact that he has a bad temper...hope that e will rmb to look for me when he comes back...quite long nv contact..wonder if he's all well....feel lyk calling him but scared dat i'll disturb him...haiz....
Waiting for my bro to buy hm our dinner...dono where he go buy....he called and say that he'll be late for an hr...wonder if he go JB buy dat Nasi Lemak....haiz....Dying of hunger...I NEED MY FOOD!!!!