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People change as they grow older don't they...

Was browsing through some of my secondary school...can i say friends???..Well, just put them as school mates...All of us are already over 18...some like me...19...Some changed from the nerdy geeks holding on to their pure Biology textbooks to frequent clubbers...some..like me...not changed much as in our lives...for me...i'm still the same old me...having the same old boring life i always had...some people might say..."Why don't you get some friends and go out...maybe even go out of singapore??Will you please get a life??"...and i think this person might mean...get a lively life...i admit that my life is boring but i couldn't help...being a person who can be so unpredictable when one moment i can be laughing and joking like nobody's business but the next minute, i could be standing at one corner keeping to myself...that explains why my social circle is so small..

the verdict?...

I'M ANIT-SOCIAL

Not a clubber not because i'm not allowed to...it's just i didn't like it...don't mind the loud music..don't mind the guys dancing with me...but i just don't like it when i can't release myself even in such situation..and i dread going to lose my temper when people start making me irritated especially the 2 hours before daybreak...thanks to me depriving of sleep...

I seriously need to join an IG..seriously i'm considering joining Jive back..but i wonder what would janice do if she see me..and what about the people???i guess there's a whole lot of pople being changed...or rather quit..like me...shall update tml if i have the time..ciaoz...

Genting....

Just came back from Genting last night...Went into the casino for the very first time of my life...the place was...full of smoke...nothing much about Genting..Just that i was damn fed up with a casino staf whom was damn farked-up...we asked for aid and all she did was insert my mum's world card into the jackpot machine,took it out,threw back to my mum and walked off wiithout even ensuring that we have no more problems...what the hell lo....my parents and i made big fuss at the casino...really sucks like shit lar the service...took a whole lot of photos on my way...mostly are nature...architecture and..my parents...shall upload the photos ba...took some random pics of myself..must say first...i not 自恋... haha...put few...shall provide the ink when i uploaded evrything to another webby~

Hmm...

I think i forgot to blog about Shu Fen's engagement...I remembered writing her testimonial asking her when she is getting married...Who knows...Now she's married...and she's having a....a season to get pregnnt huh....keep hering osme people that i know re either getting married or they "have" liao....hmm...the society is opening up? or is it only my area of the society is opening up...i certainly hope the same thing wouldn't happen to me..or at least in the next few years...

WHAT BULLSHIT AM I CRAPPING ABOUT???

I admit i'm crazy..but i can't help it..so sorry...

Went to taka to find ah min..and bought the bedsheets that my mum ask me to buy..Geez...I took a whole lot of effort to carry the whole big pack of bedsheets plus my mum's new handbag plus towels plus a bottle of garlic pearls....It's damn freaking HEAVY!!!okay..whatever it is i made it home..Ah min...please don think of him liao la...haha~that's it..dono what to say liao...

*Ah...

I'm so freaking sleepy now...but i can't sleep till the farking washing machine finish spinning and i can hang the clothes... Didn't really sleep lst night...Was damn scary...i heard this funny knowing sound from the ceiling...i was all alone in the room...it's good thing JunYong called me up...first time in 1 yr plus i talk ed to him on the phone for more than 3 hours..and i hung up when erm....i heard him snore...he was suppose to wait till i sleep before he can sleep...what a pig...he's a nice guy...but simply not my type...the reason why i can talk to him on the phone more than 3 hours....reason is simple...he can talk cock...at the same time make me laugh...enjoyed the suaning process...more of me suaning him than the other way round..haha...people who kow me much well but not very very well may think that i have a little feelings for hi..BUT...that is totally wrong...he's nice but not for me...so that someone please stop trying to push him to me...I thought about it today and erm..came to a conclusion....don't do things that may give people the wrong idea...okay..wad am i crapping about...i'm so bored waiting for that washing machine to stop....1 hour plus...omg...

I miss him...though he is no longer mine officially.but the feeling is still there though it is not as strong as before..haiz...can i just hve something normal?...

20-03-2007

Just another day...Went to a briefing to be a tutor coordinator...Paid 30 bucks each..both me and jieying..I do feel a little sorry for pulling her in...make her lose 30 bucks but we really have to work hard to at least earn back our 30 bucks..just one will be enough..do this for a yer and we see how...Confirm got people say i kena cheated but i feel that we shouldn't be so negative about such work..I don see it as a career..but at least it's nothing illegal...same goes for MLM..It is illegal but network marketing isn't...I don't regret leaving VE but at the same time i don't think it's not do-able...It's just that i am not cut out to do that and that...The market abit wrong..Hmm...Don blog about that...
Tht oyfriend of mine fnally come out...Seems like i had been thinking too much..But i can't help it..I told him he kept me guessing for the past 2.5 years..i really flared up and he apologised..but it isn't going to help..the wound is already there...Back to friends...Back to my singlehood whih i think have never left me..haha...I'm crazy...

PCK explains sex

Chu Kang ( PCK ) explaining sex to Chu Beng's son, Aloysius ...


Aloy : Why is making love so
enjoyable ?

PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjoyable becaws,
same like when you dig your nose
with your finger mah !

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Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex
more
than men?

PCK : Of course woman lah ! When you
dig
dig your nose, your nose feel
better than your finger, right ?

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Aloy : Why do women hate it when they
get raped ?

PCK : Ai-yah ! Say, you walk along the
load(road),den someone come over
and dig your nose, you like or
not ? Ehhh ? Don't pray pray ah

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Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have
sex
when she is having her menses?

PCK : Oy !! If your nose bleeding, you
still go and dig meh?? Siow ah !Use
your Blain(brain), use your
blainnn ..........

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Aloy : Why is it most men don't like
wearing condoms when they are making
love?

PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah,
you like to dig with a glove
on your finger or not ? Not
the same shiok feeling mah. Corlight
(correct) or not?

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Aloy : Why is making love carried out
in
private ?

PCK : Ah boyyyyy, use your blain, use
your blainnnnn . you go and dig your
nose in flont of your whole
class izit ?? Stupid lah!!

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Aloy : Wah ...... Uncle Chu Kang, you
are very good.

PCK : Aiyah ...... best in Singapore
and
JB, and some say Batam also ah !!!


Plainly just for laughs...PCK may be already out of the limelight but that doesn't mean we can forget the man in yellow boots...RIGHT?Haha...

hmm..

Worked at Raffles Place today and will be working there for the nest few days...Met and know a South Korean woman today...She's quite..hmm..can i say pretty?Not exactly the type that will make guys turn theor head but enough to let guys look at the 2nd time...
How did i know her?
The answer...She left her "Resume" in the ladies at Raffles Exchange...And with her handphone number on the paper, i was able to trace her...
Me being a FAKE good soul?
NOPE...I seriously want to help her since she's a foregner...PLUS inside that folder was her Degree...Can you imagine if you were her...Ventured into another country so unlike the place where she called home for the past 26years with erm..Barely make it spoken English...And only to loose an importat document...Which she spent 4 years to acheive?
I can't bear to leave her in a lurch...Just help her...Who knows?I may need her help one day too...Oh..And she could coach me with Korean..Yea!Ha ha...Seriously her written Eglish is quite good..But her spoken was really horrible...I lost count of how mny time i said "sorry can u repeat urself?"...Hmm...Guess the TourGuide said that Koreans are good at writing
English but totally sucks at speaking the language...Haha...Hope she'll succeed in her job hunt...Oh..and did i mention her name is Lee Sang-Mi?Same surname!haha~

I smsed him last night but still didn't get a reply...It so obvious to me that he is avoiding me for some reason...Felt like calling him and talk it out with him...But i gave up the thought as i thought it was no point calling him..As for sure..Nothing would come out of my mouth...I was never y normal self with him...My happy side was never around...Even though most of the time i look glum, but there's still the crazy side of me which unfortunatly, he never got to see...
I'm moving over to Serangoon next week...Saying goodbye to the area which i grew up in and i called my area for the past 19years...Will miss this place though...God..I sound like i am never going to enter this area again...I still will but hardly ever...Since i have to travel all the way there to get home...hmm..
Guess i got nothing to update...Back to my job hunting...

爱一个人，真的好难。。。
爱情总让人受到伤害。。。

i'm tired

I'm so very sick and tired of the abnormal and unhealthy relationship i had with him these 2 and 1/2 years...Now..It's finally going to end...I suppose but wouldn't be official till anyone one of us actually say it out...He went out with another girl for a movie which i think is okay since he has the freedom to go out with friends...But what i can't accept that they were pretty close and he was holding her head or hand i couldn't realy make out what Kat was saying..But i assumed it to be hand...Had wanted to end this thing to give myself a direction...And also a reason to date another guy..Though i won't deney the fact that i wasn't really interested in the guys who popped up in between these 2 and 1/2 years...I know deep in my heart i love him lot...but it doesn't help that i know he can't settle down...At least for now...At 28..or rather going to 28...A man shoud be more prepared to settle down rather than fool around...The PBL Symposium have finally ended...Tiring and slacking at the same time.Plus entertaining at sometimes...Thanks to Aidi and the guy whom i can laugh everytime i see him without fail...Mr Stanley Goh...A facilitator in school facilitating Cognitive classes...He has average looks but he is funy..Or at least he makes people laugh sometimes without even knowing why...Had this kind of crush on him..But i know i had this kind of feeling because i can't find the same feelings from my own boyfriend...He's 28 turning 29...2 man of about the same age but with different mind-sets and different charcters and bring different atmospheres...I feel happy with Stanley around but i feel troubled with Brian...I wondered if i could ever learn to trust this boyfriend of mine...Seriously..now i know..I can't...Anyway..to tell the truth...If there's a chace, i won't mind having Stanley as a boyfriend...At least i think, i can see a future and most importamtly, i would be a appier person as compared to i am now...

The BMW challenge ended yesterday and hmm...i find it kn=inda stupid...Kat entered the challenge with i don't know who and i didn't see her...sian....but seriously, though i wasn't the one playing the game,i get frustrated too...with people looking for me and i am right in front of them and they still don't see me...can u imagine that?people can be so blind at times...the first group who found me was a group of boys whom i tried to give them eye contact to tel them i am the person they are looking for..and they passed by me so many times and i got fed up so me and ah tong fooled with them for a while...One of them told me in the lift that his friend told them that there's these 2 girls staring at him...And i was like..duh...ah boy ar~u may be the more good looking one in the team but that doesn't mean that u are that attractive..at least to us u r just a little boy and we are just trying to help...god...misunderstanding..haha...after the whole thing ended..I saw the team again..think they won something...and they were saying "I am hungry."The code that they were suppose to say to find the right person which is..ME...So lame lar...Juz smiled and walked off..Went on my way back to my brother's home...

I put raffles place de aeroplane today...Called them up and told them that i can't go to work today when actually i'm just pure lazy...
Nothing to say already...Guess i'll just stop..

I'm so gonna kill myself for doing something stupid a few days back...Was going to finish blogging one whole chunk of things but one stupid finger of mine did something folish and WOOSH! whatever i had typed and whatever photos i have uploaded are GONE!...Freak sia...Back to what i had been blogging about and what i had done these few days

Looking back...

26th Feb 2007...
Sentosa "Class" Outing
That WAS so pathetic...
The class was already small enough with only 22 students and this so called clas outing is made up of only 9 of us plus someone's girlfriend...Call this a class outing...No doubt it was since we are all classmates except for one....Whom coincidently is an ex-secondary school mate who was from the class next door and now...Also my school mate next door in poly plus...My classmate is her boyfriend...Cool huh...BUT...Makes no dif for me...Shall upload the pics again..But only a few of them..Oh...And take note of the pic with Reuben..He looked like he was possessed or something...






27th Feb 2007
My 3rd brother and his wife flying off to Australia...
I admit...I CRIED in the airport...But i couldn't help it...A brother for the past 19 years.Didn't felt like crying till he huged me..Imagine...A brother who always put a stern face in frint of his sister in her younger years but only to become more "ci xiang" in her teenage years..Erm..Ha ha...But he is still my brother...RIGHT??Haha..Saw my mum's eyes go red and thought she would cry..Turn out she didn't shed a tear but i cried...
1st and 2nd march 2007...
Went back to school for the Symposium thingy...Seriously it's pretty tiring...1st march went back and went through 3 short meetings and was quite boring...but the 2nd was...erm...really tiring...woke up at 6 in the morning and had to reach school by 7.15 that day...DEPRIVED　ｏｆ　ＳＬＥＥＰ！！！　ｈａｄ　ｔｏ　ｐａｃｋ　ｔｈｅ　ＲＰ　ｂｅａｒｓ　ｉｎｔｏ　ｏｐｅｎ－ｈｏｕｓｅ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｐａｐｅｒ　ｂａｇ　ｇｏｏｄｉｅｂａｇｓ．．ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅｎ　ｈａｄ　ｔｏ　ｆｉｌｅ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｅｒｔｓ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｅｌｅｇａｔｅｓ　ａｎｄ　ｈａｄ　ｔｏ　ｐａｃｋ　ａ　ｎｕｍｂｅｒ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ．．．ｔｈａｔ　ｄａｙ　ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｓｈａｃｋ．．．

3rd and 4th march
Which is yesterday and today,....Went over to my 3rd brother's house to clean it before us moving into it....The house was...how to describe...worse then a pig sty?can i say that?It's really...one word...DIRTY! oh my god...me and my mum were like..erm...how are we going to spend the night n the pig sty..but we still did...with not much of sleep of course....am really tired now...spent 2 days cleaning every single corner of the house...and i told my mum....We just came back from a very tiring holiday...
To make matters much worse...I am working tomorrow..
A little reminder to myself of my schedule...
5/3->Working at Taka from 12 to dono what time, depending on the situation and i may get to leave early but i doubt so with jennifer around...She is bound to leave early and forgt about what she said..And did i mention we are having stock take tml???

6/3->Internationl PBL Symposium Day zero...to reach school at 11.30am...Ends dono what time...

7/3->Internationl PBL Symposium Day One...To reach school at 7.15am...Registration counter at TRCC...Shall take over secretariat roles from donpo what time....Ends areounf 5plus...

8/3->Internationl PBL Symposium Day Two...Same as yesterday....Not too sure what time evrything ends...

9/3->Internationl PBL Symposium Day Three...Same reporting time at 7.15am and being the last day..hope everything will end early...

10/3->should be and off day for me...hopefully

11/3->Northwest CDC BMW Challenge...Report to my school at 7.00 am...Funny huh....Dono how did my own school get involved...

12/3 to 16/3-> Working at Raffles Place Mrt...Covering for Wendy...CBD area..and normaly knocks off at 8pm for nite shift!YEAH!

That's all for now..Tiring and packed schedule...
Too packed to date huh....But apparetly the other party don't even bother when i was so free..it's better since i have excuses to be busy...I'm simply just tired of it...Won't bother anymore...It no longer holds an important place in my life or in my heart...Don't ask why..Just don't wish to talk about it anymore...I'm okay with this schedule though i admit that it's tiring and i do keep moaning about it...but isn't it much better than me being so free and keep thinking about things that i should never tought about?I just want a normal life....A normal life that includes a normal dating life.....