Came across this email and thought of posting it.......Identify stroke...perhaps..can save another life...PERHAPS.....
STROKE IDENTIFICATION:
During a BBQ, a friend stumbled and took a little fall - she = assured=20 everyone that she was fine. (they offered to call paramedics) She = said she=20 just tripped over a brick because of her new shoes. They got her = cleaned up=20 and got her a new plate of food - while she appeared a bit shaken = up, Ingrid=20 went about enjoying herself the rest of the evening. Ingrid's = husband called=20 later telling everyone that his wife had been taken to the hospital- = at=20 6:pm, Ingrid passed away. She had suffered a stroke at the BBQ. Had = they=20 known how to identify the signs of a stroke, perhaps Ingrid would be = with us=20 today. Some don't die. They end up in a helpless, hopeless condition = instead.
It only takes a minute to read this...
A neurologist says that if he can get to a stroke victim within = 3 hours=20 he can totally reverse the effects of a stroke...totally. He said = the trick=20 was getting a stroke recognized, diagnosed, and then getting the = patient=20 medically cared for within 3 hours, which is tough.
RECOGNIZING A STROKE
Thank God for the sense to remember the "3" steps,
"S-T-R". Read and Learn! Sometimes symptoms of a stroke are=20 difficult to identify. Unfortunately, the lack of awareness spells = disaster.=20 The stroke victim may suffer severe brain damage when people nearby = fail to=20 recognize the symptoms of a stroke.
Now doctors say a bystander can recognize a stroke by asking = three=20 simple questions:
S *Ask the individual to SMILE.
T *Ask the person to TALK . to SPEAK A SIMPLE = SENTENCE
(Coherently) (i.e. . . It is sunny out today)
R *Ask him or her to RAISE BOTH ARMS.
{NOTE: Another "sign" of a stroke is this: Ask the person to = "stick out"=20 their tongue..if the tongue is "crooked"; if it goes to one side or = the=20 other, that is also an indication of a stroke).
If he or she has trouble with ANY ONE of these tasks, = call 995=20 immediately and describe the symptoms to the dispatcher
A cardiologist says if everyone who gets this e-mail sends it to = 10=20 people, you can bet that at least one life will be saved.=20
Saturday, December 30, 2006
30 DEC'06.....
Okay...As ah min hab instructed,updating my blog NOW...The 2nd last day of the year 2006..... Thinking of my new year's resolution for 2007...Have been thinking about resolutions for the past erm...18yrs?..and have never ever thought of anything..which means...not a single resolutions for the past 18years....Sad...Countown to my next birthday..My 19th birthday...Which is 23 1/2 days away..Birthdays to me are no longer special since i was erm..10??? Seems like the saying that as people grow up,birthdays become of no special meaning to them...My past 2 birthdays...17th & 18th...had been quite erm "sad"..can i say that?...Working on my birthday..Or worse...Not having the special someone to spend my birthday with..Thanks to him for not even realising it....And realising that my birthday falls on January only this month...Like thanks for asking "how do u wan me to celebrate ur birthday with u?"....Only to have me answering, "it's just like any other day anyway...And we'll talk abt it if only u r free.."...And thank you for that buay song look....Seriously..Can u think over it...I had hoped for u to even just remember my birthday..even a simple happy birthday msg is good enough to make me happy....Do u even realise that i no longer pin hopes on u...Love u or not is not the issue....The whole world knows i love u too much to let go unless U choose to let go....The issue now is...What do u even see me as?.... Haiz.....Whatever it is...i just hope that i wun have to cry during my next birthday....Oh...I do feel happy and i am touched that u brought me to Malaysia....But it's not like the first day u know me that i don't talk much and iu wun die not talking the whole day....To me..having ur company is good enough..to u...i don't know...Tink u went broke just bring me to malaysia...the nite at ur hm in JB..seriously..was quite alright..the bed was small..yes...but i am comfortable....jus dat m not like u...once u lie down u sleep..my habit of turning around woke u up dono how many times and i'm sorry for that...The few hours at Genting was erm...hmm....dono how to say....the bed is big..so big that i don feel safe...but i slept cuz i was too tired because....u know wad u did..........n i seriously hope it wun happen again anytime now....u r growing really thin and going to be much much smaller size thn me..plz...juz fatten up??For the sake of hw people will lokk at us and ur health...skipping meals just because u r busy r excuses.....no atter how busy u r...u have to eat....haix.... Went to MOS with yuxin and huiwen and her frens and STELLA!!!! The thought of her mkes me want to laugh...Hahas....Erm...hmm
though i went clubbing like only once before the one on the 27thDec...But i have never seen anyone wearing erm..Mickey mouse blouse,mickey mouse skirt,mickey mouse earrings and okay sneakers to club...Sneakers yes..but the rest? Oh my~~~ha ha... First time clubbing...Yes i know...but must she wear till like she's going to the..erm.library??? And..oh..she mde a big fuss just because some guy hit her butt she times...And i din even say anything even though some guy...whom i figure out is erm..not very tall...hugged me...and with his leg rubbing against me...Helo~~~U shld have expected that when u went in shldn't u..I tink it's no big deal...The whole night..i was her pole..YES,Stella's pole...As she "dirty danced"...which i tinkis not dirty at all and seriously failed to make me high...And i caught some guys behind her seeing what she did and wanted to laugh but tried not to...can tell they r trying hard to stop themselves from laughing...They were so busy trying to "squash" yu xin and her fren and they 2 guys behind both the gers...damn freking obvious..but i did nothing...no point trying to stop them from doing so and getting into trouble and be so anti-climax....haix..the whole night i was only shaking away..and unable to make myself high..which everyone ard me succeeded and i did not....shld have drunk more alcohol huh...i was god damn bored the whole nite...oh..and i heard from stella that some cuckoo guys that she ASSUME that they thought we were lesbians and took photos of us TWICE and were laughing..Erm...To that guy who took photos..If u really ASSUME as Stalla had ASSUME u to be ASSUMING that we ARE lesbians...Plz find a wall and bang urself against it.... Even if i were a lesbian..Stella will NEVER be my type....NEVER as in N-E-V-
E-R...Geddit......god.. Sch statin gon wedesday...there goes my holiday..heng still gt go m'sai wib him...my trip to m'sia wib my own family was canceled thanks to the flood....rah~hope the monsoon season goes by fats....and stop flooding people's homes for goodness sake...........NUF SAID......
though i went clubbing like only once before the one on the 27thDec...But i have never seen anyone wearing erm..Mickey mouse blouse,mickey mouse skirt,mickey mouse earrings and okay sneakers to club...Sneakers yes..but the rest? Oh my~~~ha ha... First time clubbing...Yes i know...but must she wear till like she's going to the..erm.library??? And..oh..she mde a big fuss just because some guy hit her butt she times...And i din even say anything even though some guy...whom i figure out is erm..not very tall...hugged me...and with his leg rubbing against me...Helo~~~U shld have expected that when u went in shldn't u..I tink it's no big deal...The whole night..i was her pole..YES,Stella's pole...As she "dirty danced"...which i tinkis not dirty at all and seriously failed to make me high...And i caught some guys behind her seeing what she did and wanted to laugh but tried not to...can tell they r trying hard to stop themselves from laughing...They were so busy trying to "squash" yu xin and her fren and they 2 guys behind both the gers...damn freking obvious..but i did nothing...no point trying to stop them from doing so and getting into trouble and be so anti-climax....haix..the whole night i was only shaking away..and unable to make myself high..which everyone ard me succeeded and i did not....shld have drunk more alcohol huh...i was god damn bored the whole nite...oh..and i heard from stella that some cuckoo guys that she ASSUME that they thought we were lesbians and took photos of us TWICE and were laughing..Erm...To that guy who took photos..If u really ASSUME as Stalla had ASSUME u to be ASSUMING that we ARE lesbians...Plz find a wall and bang urself against it.... Even if i were a lesbian..Stella will NEVER be my type....NEVER as in N-E-V-
E-R...Geddit......god.. Sch statin gon wedesday...there goes my holiday..heng still gt go m'sai wib him...my trip to m'sia wib my own family was canceled thanks to the flood....rah~hope the monsoon season goes by fats....and stop flooding people's homes for goodness sake...........NUF SAID......
Monday, December 11, 2006
la la la~
Hmm....Sian ah~~~Finally gt my pay le.....$300 plus nia... damn sian la..haix..to tink i hab to still rely on him..my atm cum my dono-ex-or-present-bf..... Though he say he don mind...but i still tink he does....and i tink i'll nid to pay him back for the rest of my life...hmm..stuck with the same OLD guy for 2 years....And i still don really understand apart from his "horrible temper" from what he rest told me abt... Was damn sad on Saturday...Wasn't really happy with my sis-in-law....feel damn stressed la... She's the type who will juz nag at alomost every little thing she don like.... Was folding clothes that particular day and was nearing lunch..And she told me to eat lunch and all i answered was a simple and soft.. "mmm"...I admit i was slow...but i don't rmb giving her a face~~sriously if she's unhappy with my looks~~i'm so sorry..there's nothing i can do since my mum bore me with this kind of face..what u wan me to do?go under the knife? nd all my bro did was just to get a chair for me from the kitchen and do u have to ask him "why must u take for her?"..For goodness sake la.... i'm his sister leh...help me take cnt meh??I bear with her very long le leh...i must really say that i "admire" my bro for being able to tolerate her.... Bro...seriously..i also stress de leh....Not i don wan to help u..I tried to avoid dong things which she don like le...And i even stop talking to her unless necessary liao..what u wan me to do?...I was brought up in a life totlly different from hers and u know that very well since u were brought up the same way...U said that u know my temper is not good either....so can't u even tell that i'm already trying to avoid having disputes with her...It does hurt me when i c u 2 arguing because of me...Do u tink i feel good?I really don't lo....Dat very saturday my mum went to play majhong...and my dad sent her to the place..before she went out, she told me to go out if i want to...and my dad too...said the same thing to me after he came back after sending my mum to her khakis...After all, it's still my parents who know me best....Taking a breather outside the whole day is better den cooping myself up in the house with her after the incident in the morning.... Seriously i didn't feel good... i spent the whole morning crying silently....forced myself not to cry..but my tears didn't seem to listen to me...Took my bath and out i go...took an hours bus to vivo... had wanted to look for my atm...saw him..but he was busy....had told him earlier on that i would be looking for him...or rather..juz take a look at him... he was quite busy... haix..had needed a shoulder and a pair of ears....but apparently i'll never get what i need....and i ended up rotting at vivo for 3 hrs..at the same time hunting for gifts for my 2 little monsters...and ended up not even talking to him...the only thing he said was.."eh...wait har.."...couldn't really wait any longer...so juz walked out of tangs and msg him and said bye...For the 2 yrs that i've known him, he had never returned a call so fast...and i meant NEVER... Brian lim...seriously....sometimes i really don understand him...sometimes u r so cold and sometimes u can be so concerned all of a sudden...that nite when i said i was okay...i lied...i wasn't...i needed a shoulder so much that all i could rely on was the wall...sad huh.... i realised that whenever i am down, no one will ever be there for me...just like this blog....perhaps only a few people..who MAY care or just came in to look for the sake of looking.... i realised i am so pathetic...i can be so extra in a group at time tht people take a long time to realise that i am there.... Used to like to socilise with people..but not anymore... the much more autistic part of me has resurfaced... i sometimes envy people who have at least 1 or 2 very close frens who share their happiness and woes and are so happy... Do i have close friends?I did....Friends make other friends too...have other commitments..bfs...family....studies..whatever.... Sometimes a lack of communiction causes a breakdown in a relationship...and that applies to friendship too....When friends find that they no longer have something in common or rather something to talk about...the bond just like in BGR dies off.... I don't blame anyone for me ending up so pathetic...i can only blame myself....blame my personality....Some people who saw my blog posts would ask me..y are some of ur posts so pathetic...u exaggerate la....seriously..i did not... i nedded space to pour out my heart...i couldn't express myself in words verbally..all i could do was to type it down...and relief myself....or sooner or later..i may go nuts bottling up my feelings...
Looking forward to spending my X'mas in Malaysia...that's my only holiday in this holiday since i'm working like from Mondays to Fridays...Office hours....which is so like school....gonna go to bed~~
NUF SAID
Looking forward to spending my X'mas in Malaysia...that's my only holiday in this holiday since i'm working like from Mondays to Fridays...Office hours....which is so like school....gonna go to bed~~
NUF SAID
Monday, December 04, 2006
la la la~
So very the sian in class now...Having Maths tody..rAh...as usual..don understand a thing and not doing anything...
And not that i don wan to do nothing it's just that i really dono how to do... Sian...Tml last day of sch.Damn sian... Cognitive..Definitly not coming to school tml..heard its quite hard...Wednesday starting work at
JTC... Winx club kicked me out of paragon for dono wad stupid reason...Heng still gt another job lobang.. If not holiday month stay at hm and rot...Hope dat JTC wun b a bad place to survive..But for the sake of my 6.50 an hr... Bite my tongue and bear with everything...Last saturday amazing race was...erm,....Tirig..Can't think of a more suitable word to describe..I crawled my way home dat nite..and seriously if any organiser of the mazing race from Cyrvia Club sees this post..Plz feedback dat if u guys were to ever organize another one...Decrease the number of stations...13 stations is like..duh~~ So much for biting the "unpeeeled" sugarcane till i tink i bleed... and digging the sand at sembawang beach and find the letters to form a team mates name in FULL...Den to Lower seletar reservoir and i touched frog's pee and shit and for goodness sake couldn't u guys have removed the dead frogs frm the container...I don mind the pee and shit but dead frogs...Eww...The very last stop we went to was East Coast Park hich is like so god damn out of the way from my house...Before the last stop was Kallang..Though didn't complete ll the stations, but i was farking tired..All these just for 2NDA points..Freak sia..Y the school nid us to fulfil 40 pts in all to graduate wan....Rah~~€ Last thurday culture went to Fullerton hotel...Shall upload some pics...LATER....hee..I'm crazy...
And not that i don wan to do nothing it's just that i really dono how to do... Sian...Tml last day of sch.Damn sian... Cognitive..Definitly not coming to school tml..heard its quite hard...Wednesday starting work at
JTC... Winx club kicked me out of paragon for dono wad stupid reason...Heng still gt another job lobang.. If not holiday month stay at hm and rot...Hope dat JTC wun b a bad place to survive..But for the sake of my 6.50 an hr... Bite my tongue and bear with everything...Last saturday amazing race was...erm,....Tirig..Can't think of a more suitable word to describe..I crawled my way home dat nite..and seriously if any organiser of the mazing race from Cyrvia Club sees this post..Plz feedback dat if u guys were to ever organize another one...Decrease the number of stations...13 stations is like..duh~~ So much for biting the "unpeeeled" sugarcane till i tink i bleed... and digging the sand at sembawang beach and find the letters to form a team mates name in FULL...Den to Lower seletar reservoir and i touched frog's pee and shit and for goodness sake couldn't u guys have removed the dead frogs frm the container...I don mind the pee and shit but dead frogs...Eww...The very last stop we went to was East Coast Park hich is like so god damn out of the way from my house...Before the last stop was Kallang..Though didn't complete ll the stations, but i was farking tired..All these just for 2NDA points..Freak sia..Y the school nid us to fulfil 40 pts in all to graduate wan....Rah~~€ Last thurday culture went to Fullerton hotel...Shall upload some pics...LATER....hee..I'm crazy...
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
La la la
Okay..Shit...My team is one of the 80 teams chosen for this saturday's Amazing Race by Cyrvia Club. Hopefully it wouldn't be like the SLC's Amazing Race...Nothing but sian... Hope it would be fun...HOPE....
Now in class...Having this quiz...Which my team is the top 3...The other teams have the same score as my team...Hmm...Quite farney la....Hee..Y farney not impt...Not necessary to put it down anyway..The prize was..MAMEE....So lame la...Hee...Damn sian..These 2 days din do anything in class..As in presentation...And i mean NOTHING...Ha ha...Ok..Dono wad to type liao....
NUF SAID...
Now in class...Having this quiz...Which my team is the top 3...The other teams have the same score as my team...Hmm...Quite farney la....Hee..Y farney not impt...Not necessary to put it down anyway..The prize was..MAMEE....So lame la...Hee...Damn sian..These 2 days din do anything in class..As in presentation...And i mean NOTHING...Ha ha...Ok..Dono wad to type liao....
NUF SAID...
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Oh god~Wad's with everyone..Okay..Not exactly everyone..But Sai and Fred blogging???Unbelievable...Ha ha...Hacker boy blogger...Hmm.. The world has changed??? To think istarted blogging back in 2004 and my blog is still like..erm..simple now..And i can't even figure out how to design a template...Muz b thanks to my missing artistic talent and com talents......
This is so boring..School sucks...My finance sucks....It's a good thing that i still have my ATM wib me....But this ATM is short of cash at times.... Now he only got Ringgits left..Hmm...Today's the 28th..meaning he's getting his pay today...Hmm.. i sound like someone who is out to extort money from my bf or should i say ex-bf...Bf or ex...Wadever la..not impt...
The SLC amazing race last Saturaday was horrible..The very first station we went to Park Mall that area...We ate donuts which were erm...unfresh..tasted abit sour..not sure if there's anything wrong wib my tastebuds or something is really wrong wib the donuts...but i must say..they make us puke...Then we proceed on to Marina Bay...We had to ask for a guy's number la....Silly task to do ..But beats screaming at the guyson the soccer field "RP rawks"..So lame la..Den to Bedok..Took pictures of recycle bins which we can't find..But anyway i took a photo of a plastic bag holding cans...And thank god dat was accepted...Den next to Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza...Orchard again...Dat task there was really stupid..A skit...But think our shack looks put off the station master...All we did was play a simple game and off we go to YIshun.....Caterpillar walk.Bo liao game....Spoil my sports shorts..... Den lastly to Toa Payoh....Hab to run in the rain....Sian...Aiya.Talking abt the race makes me sian....Wasted my transport fare....Hav to top up 20bucks la....Rah~
Today damn no mood to do work..Totally slack until like....Not interested in today's topic...
Haix..Holiday mood already...Holidays plz come faster..RAH~~!!
This is so boring..School sucks...My finance sucks....It's a good thing that i still have my ATM wib me....But this ATM is short of cash at times.... Now he only got Ringgits left..Hmm...Today's the 28th..meaning he's getting his pay today...Hmm.. i sound like someone who is out to extort money from my bf or should i say ex-bf...Bf or ex...Wadever la..not impt...
The SLC amazing race last Saturaday was horrible..The very first station we went to Park Mall that area...We ate donuts which were erm...unfresh..tasted abit sour..not sure if there's anything wrong wib my tastebuds or something is really wrong wib the donuts...but i must say..they make us puke...Then we proceed on to Marina Bay...We had to ask for a guy's number la....Silly task to do ..But beats screaming at the guyson the soccer field "RP rawks"..So lame la..Den to Bedok..Took pictures of recycle bins which we can't find..But anyway i took a photo of a plastic bag holding cans...And thank god dat was accepted...Den next to Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza...Orchard again...Dat task there was really stupid..A skit...But think our shack looks put off the station master...All we did was play a simple game and off we go to YIshun.....Caterpillar walk.Bo liao game....Spoil my sports shorts..... Den lastly to Toa Payoh....Hab to run in the rain....Sian...Aiya.Talking abt the race makes me sian....Wasted my transport fare....Hav to top up 20bucks la....Rah~
Today damn no mood to do work..Totally slack until like....Not interested in today's topic...
Haix..Holiday mood already...Holidays plz come faster..RAH~~!!
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
rah~
Farking fed up with this kind of living environment...That is living in an evironment full of restrictions...And i mean FULL...Wad's wrong with watching the TV and doing my RJ at the same time...SHE just enjoy asking me "Are you watching that?"....Or SHE'll go "You watch that?" when i'm watching some korean drama on a weekend...It doesn't mean that i don't understand, i can't watch...And i just find it wierd listening to them speak in chinese when the way the chinese is sub in is so fake...Isn't listening to them speak in Korean more natural?...Whatever i do, i must think alot alot of times..."Will she like it?".."Will she say anything??"..."Will she give my mum more stress by complaining about me and my dad???"....Restrictions restrictions...The volume of the TV cannot be so loud... And wad's with the "I'm sorry, we forgot about you..." thingy... WTF...I so big human walking about in the streets and u see me like everyday, you cn forget about me?...And the sad thing is...Even my brother forgets about me...So sad la...Now..Even if i need a brother's shoulder to len on...I don't get to...All my brothers' shouldrs have their wife's nd kids and family burden on them..How can i even bear to add on to their weight?...Even friends...Sometimes when i need someone to tlk to, i really dono who to turn to..Even if i have someone to talk to..I dono how to spell everything out...Think i'm better off alone...Sine i'm USED TO BE FORGOTTEN BY EVERYONE...Eveyone makes new friends..Me too...But friends i made now are more like when we are together, we re good..But everything changes after the "ByeBye"....How i wished i was born 10yrs earlier..If i was, i would be 28 now..Probably getting married or is already married...Or probably not married but having a nice career...Probably....And probably not.... <br>
HER DEFINITION OF LOUD=OUR DEFINITION OF NORMAL
Like thank you so much god...I'm sick AGAIN... So sad...I'm beginning to go back to my "hua chi" days... A simple word like "Miss ya" from him can make my heart melt... Oh my...
Next Thursday Reuben got tickets to MOS de party...Free de...But hor..Still need to come up cab fare....Dono wan to go anot...Thinkng of HuiWen becoming an ADDICT to clubbing makes me feel...Wierd...It's like...She's no longer the HuiWen i use to know..Ok..My own fault...Haven't been contacting her since dono how many donkey years...Have to admit...I'm lazy...BOrn a loner...Live like a loner...Die a loner....hmm...Shld i go?Or not?Think about it first....
Want to sign up for Basic Theory and the wireless broadband thingy..But i'm broke broke broke.... Trying to scrimp to survive till the end of the month..Hopefully i'll get some comission...Hopefully i'll get at least $500 altogether....Can only pray that my sales will be good...Paragon...Got nth to say...Take..Sian...Hopefully they will give me abit of the comission from Taka Square ba....I don't mind working full-load...But please give me what i deserve....
NUF SAID
HER DEFINITION OF LOUD=OUR DEFINITION OF NORMAL
Like thank you so much god...I'm sick AGAIN... So sad...I'm beginning to go back to my "hua chi" days... A simple word like "Miss ya" from him can make my heart melt... Oh my...
Next Thursday Reuben got tickets to MOS de party...Free de...But hor..Still need to come up cab fare....Dono wan to go anot...Thinkng of HuiWen becoming an ADDICT to clubbing makes me feel...Wierd...It's like...She's no longer the HuiWen i use to know..Ok..My own fault...Haven't been contacting her since dono how many donkey years...Have to admit...I'm lazy...BOrn a loner...Live like a loner...Die a loner....hmm...Shld i go?Or not?Think about it first....
Want to sign up for Basic Theory and the wireless broadband thingy..But i'm broke broke broke.... Trying to scrimp to survive till the end of the month..Hopefully i'll get some comission...Hopefully i'll get at least $500 altogether....Can only pray that my sales will be good...Paragon...Got nth to say...Take..Sian...Hopefully they will give me abit of the comission from Taka Square ba....I don't mind working full-load...But please give me what i deserve....
NUF SAID
rah~
Farking fed up with this kind of living environment...That is living in an evironment full of restrictions...And i mean FULL...Wad's wrong with watching the TV and doing my RJ at the same time...SHE just enjoy asking me "Are you watching that?"....Or SHE'll go "You watch that?" when i'm watching some korean drama on a weekend...It doesn't mean that i don't understand, i can't watch...And i just find it wierd listening to them speak in chinese when the way the chinese is sub in is so fake...Isn't listening to them speak in Korean more natural?...Whatever i do, i must think alot alot of times..."Will she like it?".."Will she say anything??"..."Will she give my mum more stress by complaining about me and my dad???"....Restrictions restrictions...The volume of the TV cannot be so loud... And wad's with the "I'm sorry, we forgot about you..." thingy... WTF...I so big human walking about in the streets and u see me like everyday, you cn forget about me?...And the sad thing is...Even my brother forgets about me...So sad la...Now..Even if i need a brother's shoulder to len on...I don't get to...All my brothers' shouldrs have their wife's nd kids and family burden on them..How can i even bear to add on to their weight?...Even friends...Sometimes when i need someone to tlk to, i really dono who to turn to..Even if i have someone to talk to..I dono how to spell everything out...Think i'm better off alone...Sine i'm USED TO BE FORGOTTEN BY EVERYONE...Eveyone makes new friends..Me too...But friends i made now are more like when we are together, we re good..But everything changes after the "ByeBye"....How i wished i was born 10yrs earlier..If i was, i would be 28 now..Probably getting married or is already married...Or probably not married but having a nice career...Probably....And probably not.... <br>
HER DEFINITION OF LOUD=OUR DEFINITION OF NORMAL
Like thank you so much god...I'm sick AGAIN... So sad...I'm beginning to go back to my "hua chi" days... A simple word like "Miss ya" from him can make my heart melt... Oh my...
Next Thursday Reuben got tickets to MOS de party...Free de...But hor..Still need to come up cab fare....Dono wan to go anot...Thinkng of HuiWen becoming an ADDICT to clubbing makes me feel...Wierd...It's like...She's no longer the HuiWen i use to know..Ok..My own fault...Haven't been contacting her since dono how many donkey years...Have to admit...I'm lazy...BOrn a loner...Live like a loner...Die a loner....hmm...Shld i go?Or not?Think about it first....
Want to sign up for Basic Theory and the wireless broadband thingy..But i'm broke broke broke.... Trying to scrimp to survive till the end of the month..Hopefully i'll get some comission...Hopefully i'll get at least $500 altogether....Can only pray that my sales will be good...Paragon...Got nth to say...Take..Sian...Hopefully they will give me abit of the comission from Taka Square ba....I don't mind working full-load...But please give me what i deserve....
NUF SAID
HER DEFINITION OF LOUD=OUR DEFINITION OF NORMAL
Like thank you so much god...I'm sick AGAIN... So sad...I'm beginning to go back to my "hua chi" days... A simple word like "Miss ya" from him can make my heart melt... Oh my...
Next Thursday Reuben got tickets to MOS de party...Free de...But hor..Still need to come up cab fare....Dono wan to go anot...Thinkng of HuiWen becoming an ADDICT to clubbing makes me feel...Wierd...It's like...She's no longer the HuiWen i use to know..Ok..My own fault...Haven't been contacting her since dono how many donkey years...Have to admit...I'm lazy...BOrn a loner...Live like a loner...Die a loner....hmm...Shld i go?Or not?Think about it first....
Want to sign up for Basic Theory and the wireless broadband thingy..But i'm broke broke broke.... Trying to scrimp to survive till the end of the month..Hopefully i'll get some comission...Hopefully i'll get at least $500 altogether....Can only pray that my sales will be good...Paragon...Got nth to say...Take..Sian...Hopefully they will give me abit of the comission from Taka Square ba....I don't mind working full-load...But please give me what i deserve....
NUF SAID
Thursday, November 09, 2006
blah~
Have been chioging the Goong.Princess Hours these days.Last night watch until Ep20 liao...4 more to go…Shin Chaegyung…Lee Shin…Lee Yul…Min Hyorin…Hmm..Did I get the names right? Whatever la… Didn’t think much about this drama when I first saw the VCD box cover…But seriously cannot stop watching after I start…Maybe I lack of love in my life ba…So this kind of drama will interest me…
Getting more and more sick of school these days... Shit neh… How to survive the next 2 years...Haix… Started working with the new company last Saturday…Working on both weekends means having to sacrifice my whole week and lead a much more boring life than my already boring life… Monday to Friday Republic Polytechnic…Saturday & SundayWinx Club… Have to ren ming le… Earn money better than spending money ba…Since going out not my cup of tea anyway…SAVE SAVE SAVE…Going damn broke nowadays…This month only left with $100 to survive on and I didn’t even pay for my handphone bill for last month…I won’t need to pay a penalty ba I hope…
Just don’t understand how the kids nowadays can just stand in front of the TV set watching the whole preview again and again the whole day and singing the same song over and over again..Sian lo…I listen for a few hours I sian half liao…. Wan go back to Goong liao… Nuff said…
Getting more and more sick of school these days... Shit neh… How to survive the next 2 years...Haix… Started working with the new company last Saturday…Working on both weekends means having to sacrifice my whole week and lead a much more boring life than my already boring life… Monday to Friday Republic Polytechnic…Saturday & SundayWinx Club… Have to ren ming le… Earn money better than spending money ba…Since going out not my cup of tea anyway…SAVE SAVE SAVE…Going damn broke nowadays…This month only left with $100 to survive on and I didn’t even pay for my handphone bill for last month…I won’t need to pay a penalty ba I hope…
Just don’t understand how the kids nowadays can just stand in front of the TV set watching the whole preview again and again the whole day and singing the same song over and over again..Sian lo…I listen for a few hours I sian half liao…. Wan go back to Goong liao… Nuff said…
Thursday, October 19, 2006
October 19th 2006...
Sometimes i'm just so sick of school. Maybe it's not even the school's problem but my own problem. Really don't feel like studying anymore since i go to school realizing i don't learn anything, even if i do, i'll forget everything at the end of the day. But really can't stop schooling now..My brother will hit the roof and i think my mum will disown me... Wat can i do? The world is changing and the standard of living is getting higher and higher especially in Singapore...So sian la...Everytime i think of that, i'll wonder...The number of Uni grads are going up, meaning there'll be a whole lot of degree holders. If that's so, what would a Diploma help? Perhps i should consider slogging for like dono how many years, earn enough money and just migrate..But migrating should cost more ba..Sian ar... The road to the future is ambiguous...<br>
Sometimes when i can't sleep at night, i cn't help but wonder...What if i can't wake up the next morning?What if (touchwood) i lose someone the very moment i open my eyes the next morning? Don't blame me for thinking so much..All along i'm like that...Keep thinking of these kind of things...Tried to make myself more positive..but..as u see..I failed...I just wonder when can i ever stop taking the medication...Seriously i think by the time i can completely don't take the medicine, my immune system will be like..SHIT....I'll just lie on my bed..or rather mattress and think....What if my immune system gets worse..What if i can't give birth in future...What if i can't even live till THAT future.....So many "What ifs"..But who can give me an answer? God? Maybe..Doctor?Maybe not... SOmetimes i just feel that these people in whte robes are redundant...Especially to people like me suffering from chronic diseases... Medication to us is from troublesome to part of our life...Who ould love to take medication for the rest of their lives? I just hope some nice doctor could put me off medication...But at times, i'm just so sick and tired of taking medication that ijust refuse to take t lest it continue spoiling my immune system...
I should consider myself fortunate i think..Shouldn't be grumbling in my own blog...But what can i do except ramble here?Ah min will say.."Everytime ask u to update, u say lazy...now u r saying this"..Ha ha...I just need a space to squeeze myself in...People around me are always busy with their own things..Friends...Secondary school friends, in the same poly, have their own friends...Ex-classmates from the previous class have new BFFs...Can't be always looking for them...Can only blame myself for being too anti-social...
Saw and heard Ah Min's "story" about she and "he" going out...Ah Min ar...I can't stop you from liking anyone...I know you can think for yourself...But i don't wish to see anyone around me getting hurt because of relationships...Can tell that you still like him..People changes....What he did 2 years ago to another girl does not mean that he will do it again...But bear in mind, it does not mean that he will not do it again either... Girls tend to "kou shi xin fei"..I'm also like that...I may say that i don't care about him anymore...But deep inside me..I know i still miss him...Like what i told u...He can be a friend but not a bf..to me..that's beause i have never fallen for him..But you're different...It's ok to remain as friends and if you think you really want to clear your doubts, you should ask...Although i said i regretted asking him and clearing my doubts, it is a way to give you a clearer vision...It actually shows you a clearer route in front of you..Of course it needs a lot of courage...But no matter what, i'll support your decision.. :)
Sometimes when i can't sleep at night, i cn't help but wonder...What if i can't wake up the next morning?What if (touchwood) i lose someone the very moment i open my eyes the next morning? Don't blame me for thinking so much..All along i'm like that...Keep thinking of these kind of things...Tried to make myself more positive..but..as u see..I failed...I just wonder when can i ever stop taking the medication...Seriously i think by the time i can completely don't take the medicine, my immune system will be like..SHIT....I'll just lie on my bed..or rather mattress and think....What if my immune system gets worse..What if i can't give birth in future...What if i can't even live till THAT future.....So many "What ifs"..But who can give me an answer? God? Maybe..Doctor?Maybe not... SOmetimes i just feel that these people in whte robes are redundant...Especially to people like me suffering from chronic diseases... Medication to us is from troublesome to part of our life...Who ould love to take medication for the rest of their lives? I just hope some nice doctor could put me off medication...But at times, i'm just so sick and tired of taking medication that ijust refuse to take t lest it continue spoiling my immune system...
I should consider myself fortunate i think..Shouldn't be grumbling in my own blog...But what can i do except ramble here?Ah min will say.."Everytime ask u to update, u say lazy...now u r saying this"..Ha ha...I just need a space to squeeze myself in...People around me are always busy with their own things..Friends...Secondary school friends, in the same poly, have their own friends...Ex-classmates from the previous class have new BFFs...Can't be always looking for them...Can only blame myself for being too anti-social...
Saw and heard Ah Min's "story" about she and "he" going out...Ah Min ar...I can't stop you from liking anyone...I know you can think for yourself...But i don't wish to see anyone around me getting hurt because of relationships...Can tell that you still like him..People changes....What he did 2 years ago to another girl does not mean that he will do it again...But bear in mind, it does not mean that he will not do it again either... Girls tend to "kou shi xin fei"..I'm also like that...I may say that i don't care about him anymore...But deep inside me..I know i still miss him...Like what i told u...He can be a friend but not a bf..to me..that's beause i have never fallen for him..But you're different...It's ok to remain as friends and if you think you really want to clear your doubts, you should ask...Although i said i regretted asking him and clearing my doubts, it is a way to give you a clearer vision...It actually shows you a clearer route in front of you..Of course it needs a lot of courage...But no matter what, i'll support your decision.. :)
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
#```la la la~
I'm so bored in class... Today really totally didn't do anything other thanhelping in the worksheet..through the help of fredolution... Damn moodless today la...Other den that i don't think i help in anyway la...Geez...Macham self-evaluation lidat...But heck la..even if i try to think, nothing comes out...Heck la...don bother..anyway already done with the presentation...now just passing time...
Yst went to the so called interview at Tiong Bahru... And i really wan to beat up Sai....From th very moment we leve the office until we part ways and until today...he still continues his "Winx Club"....Irritating man....But anyway..thanks to ah min...den i can find another rice bowl... :) Thousand muackies to ya~
My aboji is suffering from slight depression..hope it doesn't get worse..and hope i wun get it...These few weeks have been looking for a job until i get so irritated and frustrated with myself...How i wish money can just drop from the sky and i wun need to worry so much....Sick and tired....
Going home wib Ah min later...This sick chicken sick again le...Rest well wor...And gt chance go K again leh...Until now we haven go with Tong they all... :)
Yst went to the so called interview at Tiong Bahru... And i really wan to beat up Sai....From th very moment we leve the office until we part ways and until today...he still continues his "Winx Club"....Irritating man....But anyway..thanks to ah min...den i can find another rice bowl... :) Thousand muackies to ya~
My aboji is suffering from slight depression..hope it doesn't get worse..and hope i wun get it...These few weeks have been looking for a job until i get so irritated and frustrated with myself...How i wish money can just drop from the sky and i wun need to worry so much....Sick and tired....
Going home wib Ah min later...This sick chicken sick again le...Rest well wor...And gt chance go K again leh...Until now we haven go with Tong they all... :)
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
duh~~
I better blog before ah min start to nag at me again..Hee...School has been erm...Normal?!...As usual..Everyday's routine is the same...And erm...I'm losing my rice bowl soon....haix...shit man....Without a job how am i going to survive...Better keep looking for one before i starve....
Geez...How i miss King Kong...Haiz....Sent a letter to Seoul to Karen and hope she'll pass it to him..Or rather..th letter will even reach Seoul.. Rah...Life has been so KOREAN....God...Ever since i came back from Korea, i have been like watching Korean Drama everyday and even when i went to work...I see Koreans and the only missing child reported by the information counter is a Korean kid..And best...Jia Ling..My colleague is like flying off to Korea the next day at 1am...Gosh..Rah~~...And my "good" neighbour just returned from Korea also a few days ago... I didn't know until i saw dat auntie carrying a luggage and a carton full of Hangul...Rah~~so angry...Really don't understand what is wrong with me...I just keep hoping that i could just stay there and not come back...I wanna learn the language.but now...i'm broke....rah~~~who can sponsor me?....I write those Hangul without even knowing what i'm writing la...
N.Korea tested the nuclear weapon against the wills of the UN huh..or something like dat?..hmm... No comments...Not supposed to comment either...Anyway... In case "some goondo" don't know and start saying i want b**mb the US just because i use the S.Korean flag as my disply pic in msn, i better make it clear.... The flag i use as dp is SOUTH Korean flag NOT NORTH Korean flag.... And i don't think N.Korea is going to b**mb the US la...Geddit goondo?? Ok...No blogging about politics...Lest i get into unneccessary trouble with the law...
Back to whatever.....I MISS O BAK~~~
Geez...How i miss King Kong...Haiz....Sent a letter to Seoul to Karen and hope she'll pass it to him..Or rather..th letter will even reach Seoul.. Rah...Life has been so KOREAN....God...Ever since i came back from Korea, i have been like watching Korean Drama everyday and even when i went to work...I see Koreans and the only missing child reported by the information counter is a Korean kid..And best...Jia Ling..My colleague is like flying off to Korea the next day at 1am...Gosh..Rah~~...And my "good" neighbour just returned from Korea also a few days ago... I didn't know until i saw dat auntie carrying a luggage and a carton full of Hangul...Rah~~so angry...Really don't understand what is wrong with me...I just keep hoping that i could just stay there and not come back...I wanna learn the language.but now...i'm broke....rah~~~who can sponsor me?....I write those Hangul without even knowing what i'm writing la...
N.Korea tested the nuclear weapon against the wills of the UN huh..or something like dat?..hmm... No comments...Not supposed to comment either...Anyway... In case "some goondo" don't know and start saying i want b**mb the US just because i use the S.Korean flag as my disply pic in msn, i better make it clear.... The flag i use as dp is SOUTH Korean flag NOT NORTH Korean flag.... And i don't think N.Korea is going to b**mb the US la...Geddit goondo?? Ok...No blogging about politics...Lest i get into unneccessary trouble with the law...
Back to whatever.....I MISS O BAK~~~
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
4th day of school........
Seriously, i tot of not blogging anymore...Damn lazy to update evryday since no one is reading anyway...But i'm back just because i need a space to "scream" in...This is like the 4th day of school and seriously i can't wait to graduate...Nothing wrong with the people there..It's just the place.the environment that i'm sick of...Imagine having to spend another 2yrs there..gosh...
The Korea Trip was..erm.."Fun"...specially with King Kong around...He looks blur..but he's really cute...As in character wise...And i love the place..i don't know why even though i don't understand a single word the South Koreans are talking about... Reminds me of the day...When we went to YongIn Everland...The theme park where Jang Na-Ra and Kim Jae Won shot the "Red Bean something Love"..."Hong Dou Nu Zhi Lian"...We cut the looooong queue where the Koreans were Q-ing...And on the way..i can feel their eyes staring at us like as if they were going to eat us up... I swear i heard some Korean in the crowd cursing us like anything...Though i feel bad about cutting Q..but..Who cares..Hello..I'm there for like 6 days and they are like there for the whole year... I love the climate..It's so cooling though in the afternoon is a little hot..but...no sweat~ Seriously i didn't wan to come back...And until today i still can't help but think about the country itself... I would seriously consider migrating over or even just going there to stay or study for some time only if the neccessaties were cheaper... One bowl of noodles.which apparently looks like the cup noodle we eat here...cost me 6000won which is like S$10...Imagine....Paying 10 bucks for a bowl of maggi mee in Korea when i will only need to pay $1.40 or $2+ for the same thing...Given a chance i want to go back again...I feel more like "home" there..i don't know why...perhaps it's really like what my dad told me, that i'm a Korean in my past life...He felt the same whan he went to Japan..and through somespiritual rituals, he found out that he was a Japanese in his past life..Believe or not, it's up to you..But i do believe to some extent...
Korean dramas..Korean variety shows on youtube....Korean food channel....just can't move away from it...and i'm trying to learn the language by myself...thought of enrolling into a language school and at least get a certificate for it....just to prove to myself though...but...money....where am i suppose to dig..........haiz......go to bed......
The Korea Trip was..erm.."Fun"...specially with King Kong around...He looks blur..but he's really cute...As in character wise...And i love the place..i don't know why even though i don't understand a single word the South Koreans are talking about... Reminds me of the day...When we went to YongIn Everland...The theme park where Jang Na-Ra and Kim Jae Won shot the "Red Bean something Love"..."Hong Dou Nu Zhi Lian"...We cut the looooong queue where the Koreans were Q-ing...And on the way..i can feel their eyes staring at us like as if they were going to eat us up... I swear i heard some Korean in the crowd cursing us like anything...Though i feel bad about cutting Q..but..Who cares..Hello..I'm there for like 6 days and they are like there for the whole year... I love the climate..It's so cooling though in the afternoon is a little hot..but...no sweat~ Seriously i didn't wan to come back...And until today i still can't help but think about the country itself... I would seriously consider migrating over or even just going there to stay or study for some time only if the neccessaties were cheaper... One bowl of noodles.which apparently looks like the cup noodle we eat here...cost me 6000won which is like S$10...Imagine....Paying 10 bucks for a bowl of maggi mee in Korea when i will only need to pay $1.40 or $2+ for the same thing...Given a chance i want to go back again...I feel more like "home" there..i don't know why...perhaps it's really like what my dad told me, that i'm a Korean in my past life...He felt the same whan he went to Japan..and through somespiritual rituals, he found out that he was a Japanese in his past life..Believe or not, it's up to you..But i do believe to some extent...
Korean dramas..Korean variety shows on youtube....Korean food channel....just can't move away from it...and i'm trying to learn the language by myself...thought of enrolling into a language school and at least get a certificate for it....just to prove to myself though...but...money....where am i suppose to dig..........haiz......go to bed......
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
~*~lalala~*~
Okay... I'm officially back to singlehood...Honestly, i knew this would happen sonner or later..it's just that i didn't realise that it will be like THIS long...1yr plus...going 2yrs...Goodness..How did i survive.. It feels wired as in the past whenever i'm out of love i'll cry like i lost my parents..but this time..i did not even shed a single tear...Is it because i am immune already or is it that it's no longer important to me on whether he sayang me or not...Though i feel down...but that is partly due to my deprived of sleep...Reach home at 11 plus last night and couldn't even submit my RJ...But good thing the fai give me B..wad's wasted is that i think i can get A if i submit my RJ..so sad...sent him my RJ..dono whether he will accpet late RJ anot...pray hard...
Recently just started "studying" at a marketing company..the people there are very young..The
CEO is only 32yrs old..and most or the BMs,MMs and MEs are all around my age, even younger also..and i met 3 familiar people there..Met sihui..my primary school buddy...who is the same position as me MA(p)...and to my surprise..jiahong...my senior from secondary school...and joan...hmm...i rmb her asking me to go to the interview a few months back...but i din realise that she may be working in that company and i confirmed when i saw her yst in the office...She lready a ME..going on to become a MM and me..still a MA(p)...muz faster close deals to climb up...ha ha..easier said than done... But i think handling this job and also my other job plus school will really tire me out..wonder if i can tahan..haiz...hope i can perservere on to excel there... If i can climb up to a ME in 2-3mths time, i'll be happy le.. that's like only 2 levels up..I CAN DO IT...ha ha..crazy...trying to motivate myself..STOP DREAMING GER....ha ha...Car..ha ha..money..gosh~i'm going crazy..stop thinking..
Today Azri's 19th birthday..As usual..The usual what-we-do-during-birthdays thing.buy a small cake from the cafe, poke a candle and sing the birthday song...ha ha...ok..not farney...
Recently just started "studying" at a marketing company..the people there are very young..The
CEO is only 32yrs old..and most or the BMs,MMs and MEs are all around my age, even younger also..and i met 3 familiar people there..Met sihui..my primary school buddy...who is the same position as me MA(p)...and to my surprise..jiahong...my senior from secondary school...and joan...hmm...i rmb her asking me to go to the interview a few months back...but i din realise that she may be working in that company and i confirmed when i saw her yst in the office...She lready a ME..going on to become a MM and me..still a MA(p)...muz faster close deals to climb up...ha ha..easier said than done... But i think handling this job and also my other job plus school will really tire me out..wonder if i can tahan..haiz...hope i can perservere on to excel there... If i can climb up to a ME in 2-3mths time, i'll be happy le.. that's like only 2 levels up..I CAN DO IT...ha ha..crazy...trying to motivate myself..STOP DREAMING GER....ha ha...Car..ha ha..money..gosh~i'm going crazy..stop thinking..
Today Azri's 19th birthday..As usual..The usual what-we-do-during-birthdays thing.buy a small cake from the cafe, poke a candle and sing the birthday song...ha ha...ok..not farney...
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
~*~happy birthday Singapore..~*~
A vice-president...How does it sound? Cool huh....But it's not when u r the VP of a shaky IG....which the attendance, honestly is like shit....And the people there...erm...generally ok except for the three council people...which one who happens to wear the same top and HAPPEN to be in dance IG ... Sounds as if she wants to take over the whole IG..which i feel is damn shitty...I think she finds the whole IG LAME...MISS if u find it LAME, the doors are ALWAYS OPEN for YOU to GET OUT!....FREAK sia..This kind of person....First time step into the IG meeting den give this kind of f**king attitude.... If there is an interview before we decide who come in...i SINCERELY hope that she WILL NOT get in..No wondr she lost i nthe student council's election thingy...hmm..ok.. i sound like i have something against her....and i think i do....but i believe i'm not the ony one...
Bck to what i was talking.... I realise that apart from the first meeting, the consecutive meetings we always have the President missing.....And during the previous one...that Eddie...I think he thought i was the President when i am actually not...Honestly, i'm just a dummy VP.... Though i volunteered myself, i just thought maybe can earn a little CCA poits or even make my CV look nicer... Since no one was willing den i volunteer lor.but i think i may have to end up doing loads of what was supose to be the Presidents job....that's like so sian la.....duh....okie..nothing to say..today's national day...the nation's birthday..a public holiday...which means a day of more sleeping time for me..hahaha..okie..i'm lame...Happy holies people...as if anyone is reading....
HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!
Bck to what i was talking.... I realise that apart from the first meeting, the consecutive meetings we always have the President missing.....And during the previous one...that Eddie...I think he thought i was the President when i am actually not...Honestly, i'm just a dummy VP.... Though i volunteered myself, i just thought maybe can earn a little CCA poits or even make my CV look nicer... Since no one was willing den i volunteer lor.but i think i may have to end up doing loads of what was supose to be the Presidents job....that's like so sian la.....duh....okie..nothing to say..today's national day...the nation's birthday..a public holiday...which means a day of more sleeping time for me..hahaha..okie..i'm lame...Happy holies people...as if anyone is reading....
HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!
Friday, August 04, 2006
juz another post of complaint........
Jen called to me to ask me go citylink help out..but damn sian..so told hr today after sch got something on...actually nothing de....but end up hadijah msn me told me to mit her after sch to go to the Student Union de afternoon tea for IG Reps...Until 7.30...5 den start...thought of going..but really wait until i sian....so left at 4 plus and told hadijah tht i rushing for time when i actually gt nth on...sian..tml hab to work..jen told me september Taka square de fair we will have a counter downstairs..think she will throw me down ba...i don mind working everyday from 1st sept to 10th sept..but just don put me together with Yati..It's either she and someone else or me with someone else...nono to me and she..ALONE...confirm argue de....She don even know the difference between a subordinate and colleague lo...damn sian.... I'm her colleague... though i'm a part-timer, but can sh at least show some respect to me at least as a senior..And i don like pl to boss me around especially when that person is not even my superior..how i wish she can realise that her "xiao jie pi qi" at the workplace is making all of us dislike her..now i know why when she kena sabo at Esprit, none of he colleagues help her liao......Although i will show my "xiao jie" temper at times, i wun show it at work lo..but she like show everywhere..haiz..sian.....Don even think of bossng me around... Boss me around and i confirm argue with u.... wait till u r promoted to assisstant supervisor den say ba...which i think will never happen..unless chane supervisor.....sian..tml hab to work.....Hope that Fred will rmb dat stupid vcd on monday...damn sian la..no movie to watch.....Haiz..Sian..Go sleep ba~~
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
If someone were to ask me this question.."One word that best decribes you..."... I think the answer should be "PATHETIC".... For someone who fails at relationships, BGR...Friends..Or even Family...what other words can best describe me??? Failed relationships aside...... Family reltionships...Sometimes i really can't help but wonder....Am i even wanted in this family..... Why do i feel so extra no matter how hard i try to fit into the family....I try to sit down and listen and give my opinions during family talks..But whenever i start talking, i either get shot at or silent responses.....Of course there are times where i do get proper responses..but how many among all the responses that i got re like that....How pathetic can one be..... Like me??.... Trying to fit into the class seems to be another problem.... I don't think much people will realise that i am actully around just because i did not make much noise the entire day...just becaue i can't talk too much thanks to my flu and cough.....Maybe i'm more suitble to be loner.... I do have friends....but how many among my friends actually bother about me when they are with other friends...the answer..none... i'm not trying to complain.....i just need a place to pin down what i am thinkng of deep inside me.... Pin them down just before i go crazy burying all these things in my hert and bring them down to the grave with me..... I suppose i'm born a loner....bred a loner...and will die a loner.....
I sometimes just really can't work it out..Why does heaven mke a sport out of me everytime.....sick and tired of reltionships.....I don't understand why the curent one is like that....I tried calling him last night and didn't get through....And then i recieve a msg frm him just before i go to bed.... But why is it that the more i look at his msgs, the more uneasy i feel??.... I had a hard time trying to force myself to cry on my bed...... I have to relieve myself..and i still feel like crying now...but i'm in school.......the no-no plce for me to cry at... Why is it that whenever it's near to the end of the month, i can't find you...Why re you making empty promises.... I'm still girl no mtter wad....Of corz i nid to feel loved... I did not ask for your commitment...I did not ask for you to be alwys by my side...I just want a little of your concern and love and only a little of your time..What's so hard about that???...I'm really tired....tired of life.. tired of everything..................................
...TIRED...
I sometimes just really can't work it out..Why does heaven mke a sport out of me everytime.....sick and tired of reltionships.....I don't understand why the curent one is like that....I tried calling him last night and didn't get through....And then i recieve a msg frm him just before i go to bed.... But why is it that the more i look at his msgs, the more uneasy i feel??.... I had a hard time trying to force myself to cry on my bed...... I have to relieve myself..and i still feel like crying now...but i'm in school.......the no-no plce for me to cry at... Why is it that whenever it's near to the end of the month, i can't find you...Why re you making empty promises.... I'm still girl no mtter wad....Of corz i nid to feel loved... I did not ask for your commitment...I did not ask for you to be alwys by my side...I just want a little of your concern and love and only a little of your time..What's so hard about that???...I'm really tired....tired of life.. tired of everything..................................
...TIRED...
Monday, July 31, 2006
~*~Reflections of a future old virgin....~*~
Die an old virgin... Wow...hmm....Don't ask me why i thought of this title.Juz thought of it and that's it....Ok..i'm out of my mind...Frustrated today....When Sai called me a "Malaysian" i juz couldn't be bothered until later and next when he said something until it's like my fault that HE can't get his cafe food when that idiot librarian said..no food in the library..I said..Fine..ok....my fault..Den i go back la....But end up i din... But the damn library..No food and drinks....Den what for put a stupid dumb dumb cafe inside the library....Aren't those things called FOOD??!! Stupid school with stupid structure and stupid system..... Really no motivation to go to that woodlands IMH~~~ Note..IMH stands for Institute of Mental Health..juz in case some goodo can't figure out what is it....
Back to school.....Wilson dono is PMS or what..so unlike himself today... But what irritates me is that he came over and kick my chair and scolded vulgarities at me for nothing la... FARKER!!! Idiot la...I din even provoke him la...
so sian..dono to go or not tml...but got UT...sian....
Attention Brian Lim Keng Tong(as if he'll see)..... I feel damn not loved la..... U don't even show a very normal concern to me la... I think you'll be either the last or may not even know if something serious were to happen to me.....Including Death.......
I'm not thinking of suicide..don worry.... I'm not so idiotic to die juz because of a man....Obviously, it's not worth it....It's not worth to die over any guy.... I may die for my dad or my brothers bt definitly not for a guy....unless i'm stressed out by other things....
Back to school.....Wilson dono is PMS or what..so unlike himself today... But what irritates me is that he came over and kick my chair and scolded vulgarities at me for nothing la... FARKER!!! Idiot la...I din even provoke him la...
so sian..dono to go or not tml...but got UT...sian....
Attention Brian Lim Keng Tong(as if he'll see)..... I feel damn not loved la..... U don't even show a very normal concern to me la... I think you'll be either the last or may not even know if something serious were to happen to me.....Including Death.......
I'm not thinking of suicide..don worry.... I'm not so idiotic to die juz because of a man....Obviously, it's not worth it....It's not worth to die over any guy.... I may die for my dad or my brothers bt definitly not for a guy....unless i'm stressed out by other things....
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
I sometimes wonder... Are all the things in our life predestinated or can we change our fate with our own hands??? Sometimes i feel that some things are fated to be....And sometimes, things can go the other way round if we were to try to change it...I sometimes can't help but wonder...Is me meeting him fated or can i change my own fate....He's in Singapore le...And i know he's very frustrated about his job-hunting..He had apologised to me for puttng me aside all these while....At least i feel relieved that he did realise he had neglected me all these while.... I sometimes really feel useless....I know he's frustrated and i can't help him..All he told me was to study hard as it is important..Well, of course i know the importance of studies but i simply hate studying and he knows it.... But at least i did not give up going to school...At least i chose to continue my studies in a polytechnic and didn't just stop at O'levels....I always have the feeling that we will not last and i'm kinda prepared for it... I know he's afraid of commitment and i won't expect him to do so....Sometimes i wonder if it's better for us to not have that "bf,gf"thingy....i wonder if it's better for us to be just normal friends..maybe this way, we are happier.... but everyone knows..it's hard......damn hard.......
Today damn cham...dono wad's wrong wib myself..keep having mood swing............Before leaving school still "hai" le xiu hui lose her RJ...so sorry babe~~~Tml got UT....Retest somemore.....sian...haiz...go back to my movie...... "The King And The Clown"...Lee Joon Ki damn pretty la...ha ha~~~....Endz.....
Saturday, July 22, 2006
x..haiz..x
These 2 days r lyk shit...Yst din go to school..was too sian to go... Woke up ard 11 plus and went out ard 2.00.....Suppose to go Raffles City de outlet but end up juz before i reach...Jen call me and ask me go Taka..Too bad i was wearing jeans..cnt go..Den she ask me go Great World.....I was like..Wad the hell la.....Excuse me.... There's no bus to go to Great World from City Hall la..... Sian...Den hab to take MRT go Orchard... Take a shuttle bus outside Tangs to go there.....Wad the F...la...... 2 idiotic hours to reach Great World..Wad the.... ReACH THERE ALREADY 4.00..... Heng dat Sharon not too bad.... She ask me to juz leave at 9.30 without saying anything....Juz to spare me from sweeping and mopping the floor...The shop is like damn big la..Heng no nid me to clean..If not i sure collapse...But i went to the wrong bus stop to take a bus home..End up have to go one big round....Sian....
Today went Raffles Place AGAIN... Same thing happen.... They ask me go City Link..Heng is downstairs nia..If ask me to go somewhere else AGAIN i rather don work la... Make me feel damn unwanted la...If i not "gian peng" i juz quit liao... City Link de ppl not bad neh....much much much better den Plaza Singapura and Marina Square de... At least i feel like human.. Did lots and lots and lots of cashiering today....today de sales over $1800~~~Haiz..tired tired tired...go to bed liao............. ZzZzZzZz........
***"gian peng" = something like damn hard-up for money..dono how to explain oso...
Today went Raffles Place AGAIN... Same thing happen.... They ask me go City Link..Heng is downstairs nia..If ask me to go somewhere else AGAIN i rather don work la... Make me feel damn unwanted la...If i not "gian peng" i juz quit liao... City Link de ppl not bad neh....much much much better den Plaza Singapura and Marina Square de... At least i feel like human.. Did lots and lots and lots of cashiering today....today de sales over $1800~~~Haiz..tired tired tired...go to bed liao............. ZzZzZzZz........
***"gian peng" = something like damn hard-up for money..dono how to explain oso...
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
suay suay suay~~~~
I can't be more suay la.....this week is like so ta ma de la...last sunday suppose to work morning...end up i forgot about it and end up sleeping until 9.30am and have to bia cab down to Taka wasted $10 bucks lo..sian...During work...the full-timer...dono is PMS or wad....give me that f**king look on her face...wad the F la.... U moody ur prob la...show us that face for wad..F man...After work...walk over to somerset to take bus home....Pu bor~~Some stupid woman..... Dono whther she know how to drive anot....Tried to chiong the red light end up too late so stuck in the middle of the crossing... Green man showing so i should croww liao...den i juz cross lor...but that idiotic woman reverse~~F sia.....idiot....if i don move back think my feet would be crushed liao...I'm like a few seconds to becoming a disabled.....Wad the....
so so so sian......really sick and tired of life....
My dad ask me to go over to Australia after i graduate from poly in 3 yrs time....He says that with a logistics diploma, it's easier to find a job over there...I was thinking if i really wer to go over..den i think most likely i will never come back le ba...Such things are hard to say....3 yrs...who know's what will happen.... i may or may not be attached by then..who know's...i may be married in 3 years time.....who knows~ha ha~~~~~~~~~~~
~~Time Will Tell~~
so so so sian......really sick and tired of life....
My dad ask me to go over to Australia after i graduate from poly in 3 yrs time....He says that with a logistics diploma, it's easier to find a job over there...I was thinking if i really wer to go over..den i think most likely i will never come back le ba...Such things are hard to say....3 yrs...who know's what will happen.... i may or may not be attached by then..who know's...i may be married in 3 years time.....who knows~ha ha~~~~~~~~~~~
~~Time Will Tell~~
Friday, July 14, 2006
o.O
Friday.... The last day of school day..... Others will rather go out and chill out but for me... hee....rather stay at home and rot....... Wonder why some people can stay out for like 16 hours outside their homes and i can stay at home for the same amount of time.... Sometimes dono why...Juz very tired to go out... The thought of walkng out of my home door makes me sick... Sorry YuLing.... Really damn lazy to go Sentosa.... Or rather to even go out... But confirm will go clubbing again one day de... hee.... Sorry...Even if i wan go don think this month can make it... Damn brok le... Spent too much...And i have to depend on the remainder of my money for the rest of the month and save some for next month.....
Sian ar..... Yst went back Taka... Shouldn't have gone back.... I'm like boiling when i saw the schedule... Shit lo.... Dat idiot Jennifer.... She really sweep out all of us the senior part-timers...... She left only the newer part-timers and her daughter on the schedule...wad the F*** la..... Damn la.... Don wan me lao can at least tell me wad.... F**ker....B**CH!!!! Thanks to her... Next month i hab to drink the wind to live on liao.....Idiot~~~~ Really muz look for another job before i starve le...but who will hire me???
Called him juz now...I know i shouldn't....i know i should hab stopped myself from doing stupid things....Ok...But at least i feel more at ease...At least he bother to pick up the fone... but he really make me boil... the first thing is say to me is "been looking for me lke hell huh".....den i'm lke...wth~~ u know i'm looking for u like hell and u refuse to take my calls.... somemore can tell me... "din answer ur calls coz got no mood to listen to my voice"...OOI!!!! Do my voce make u even more moody??? Wad do u treat me as?? I mean..helo..... U wen t missing for weeks and this is what u tell me when u finally take my call???DAH!!! But aniway....he's comng back the end of the month..Din really talk to him and told him i have something to do....Ok...Once again..Wait for him to come back...Last time i'm going to wait.....
waiting for fad to email me the IG de thing...If not cnt do..........Waiting.........
Sian ar..... Yst went back Taka... Shouldn't have gone back.... I'm like boiling when i saw the schedule... Shit lo.... Dat idiot Jennifer.... She really sweep out all of us the senior part-timers...... She left only the newer part-timers and her daughter on the schedule...wad the F*** la..... Damn la.... Don wan me lao can at least tell me wad.... F**ker....B**CH!!!! Thanks to her... Next month i hab to drink the wind to live on liao.....Idiot~~~~ Really muz look for another job before i starve le...but who will hire me???
Called him juz now...I know i shouldn't....i know i should hab stopped myself from doing stupid things....Ok...But at least i feel more at ease...At least he bother to pick up the fone... but he really make me boil... the first thing is say to me is "been looking for me lke hell huh".....den i'm lke...wth~~ u know i'm looking for u like hell and u refuse to take my calls.... somemore can tell me... "din answer ur calls coz got no mood to listen to my voice"...OOI!!!! Do my voce make u even more moody??? Wad do u treat me as?? I mean..helo..... U wen t missing for weeks and this is what u tell me when u finally take my call???DAH!!! But aniway....he's comng back the end of the month..Din really talk to him and told him i have something to do....Ok...Once again..Wait for him to come back...Last time i'm going to wait.....
waiting for fad to email me the IG de thing...If not cnt do..........Waiting.........
Monday, July 10, 2006
sian sian~~
Last Saturday went to Devils wib yu xin, yu ling and her frens~~paid 20 bucks and only can redeem 1 drink...so sian lo...seems like only yu xin enjoy the music...i find it quite ok la...juz dat a little sian....but ta ma de.... some idiotic guy bua my butt~~~ma de...E malay guy nvm la....since he's someone dat one of us know...but dat idiotic chinese guy~wad the....from dat time we juz went in and dat siao char bor yu xin start to dance the guys r looking at her liao....but din expect them to surround me n her after yu ling and her frens left to make a phone call or wad.... thanx to her la..must b her shaking la....if not they wun come over...ma de..damn sick la..bua my butt den hold my waist and arms... i din do much except push it away liao...den he can still say bye bye to us before he leave... reach there abt 11.30 but 1.30 me n yu xin left le... don like to go home too late.... Yu xin intro a job at Nokia shop......honestly...look at dat woman....got only 1 kind of feelin......bitch......she wear until her canal can c lo...den the way she tok...and her behaviour like shit lo...really don hab a good impression of her.... honestly...don feel like accepting the job....hab a damn farney feeling inside me telling me dat this woman cannot be trusted.....
Really very tired....getting more and more restless....dono y...seems like no matter how much slp i get, i still get very restless.... very easily get pek chek...haiz...Wednesday i tink i pon sch......hab to go and take my blood test......and don wan to c dt stupid bitch.....dat "ya lor" auntie........f***la.... gip me a D...my first D.......wad the...hate it like hell.....
Really very tired....getting more and more restless....dono y...seems like no matter how much slp i get, i still get very restless.... very easily get pek chek...haiz...Wednesday i tink i pon sch......hab to go and take my blood test......and don wan to c dt stupid bitch.....dat "ya lor" auntie........f***la.... gip me a D...my first D.......wad the...hate it like hell.....
Monday, July 03, 2006
xSad....x
Haiz...i sometimes feel dat i'm so useless.... My whole life is like shit....... Esp my love life and sch life....Though my family life sux a little...but it's still alright... Never hab i ...NEVER hab i met a good guy before....so damn tired....i'm still sleepy even though i have enuf sleep.....i keep feeling restless..keep having dat feeling dat i'm collapsing anytime..... so sick n tired of life.... shld i juz end this so called "relationship"??? i feel that i am nth in his eart...the call dat was suppose to come never came....the promises he made never came true......the feeling of love...gone.....wad am i to do? if i were to end now...all my time...my youth....my tears and my braincells are wasted....the waited wasn't short...i am tired..i feel like leting go..but sometimes feel dat..it's such a watse...he may not b a good guy....but we love someone for wad they are isn't it...i fell right in knowing dat he wasn't a good guy...but i believe dat as long as he doesn't make the same mistakes again...we can forgive and forget.......i believe he is a good guy in nature..the prob wib him is dat he don't like to show his true self in front of people..he's like wearing a mask and facing people................i'm tired.....................................................................can i juz keep slpin and not think of anything???...............................................
Saturday, July 01, 2006
dotz....
Haiz...wad a sian day... i practically din do anything today...Went to the hair salon wib my mum today to cut hair.... we spent $283 bucks lo..i'm like duh~.... We cut and wash onli lo...mine is $26 and my mum's $20... my mum bought those facial thingy dat the lady boss recommended...but ok la...since she told my mum to try on the spot...there my mum go again.... spend money....now i know where my genes come from...from my mum..buti use to be quite thrify...though now i still quite gei gao most of the time.... but now i mostly spend on food....i don mind spurging on expensive food, provided the food must be good.... but i mind spending a lot on clothes..... honestly....most of my clothes i buy are normally between 5 to 20 bucks... those nearer to 20 bucks de are those jackets of mine... the more expensive clothes in my wardrobe are all paid by my spendthrift mum....Ard 50 bucks fr a demin dress... almost 60 bucks for a Triumph bra.... 30 bucks Mango sweater bought at half price during a sale.. The rest are like...cheapskate things..those ulu ulu brands dat i bought from the roadside stalls at the market....
ok.... back to my hair...that auntie say i gt oily scalp..sobz....den ask my mum to buy me the shampoo..den my mum was like..ok buy lo....den after dat that auntie bring another treatment thingy den tell me dat after using the shampoo, my hair will b damn rough..will "da jie" den say my mum oso can use...dn my mum really buy both...add up to lyk 46bucks....don ask me y we end up paying $283.... i was really lyk wad the... but suan le.."ai mei shi nu ren de tian xing"...dat auntie keep empahsising dat only the cleanser dat we use once or twice a week i can use..the rest of the facial thingy i CANNOT use.... Plz lo...u ask me to use i oso wun use.... sometimes i may oso b ai mei la..but so ma fan...damn lazy to use oso....hee....but anyway...she use the straighten hair de thingy to straighten my hair....so loooooooong nv c myself ij straight hair liao..so bu xi guan...but tml after bath jiu mei le~~hee......
i wait for him wait until wan to cry le..haiz....suan le... maybe i shld really think thru abt me n him....
ok.... back to my hair...that auntie say i gt oily scalp..sobz....den ask my mum to buy me the shampoo..den my mum was like..ok buy lo....den after dat that auntie bring another treatment thingy den tell me dat after using the shampoo, my hair will b damn rough..will "da jie" den say my mum oso can use...dn my mum really buy both...add up to lyk 46bucks....don ask me y we end up paying $283.... i was really lyk wad the... but suan le.."ai mei shi nu ren de tian xing"...dat auntie keep empahsising dat only the cleanser dat we use once or twice a week i can use..the rest of the facial thingy i CANNOT use.... Plz lo...u ask me to use i oso wun use.... sometimes i may oso b ai mei la..but so ma fan...damn lazy to use oso....hee....but anyway...she use the straighten hair de thingy to straighten my hair....so loooooooong nv c myself ij straight hair liao..so bu xi guan...but tml after bath jiu mei le~~hee......
i wait for him wait until wan to cry le..haiz....suan le... maybe i shld really think thru abt me n him....
Thursday, June 29, 2006
I wish.....
Why is it that whenever I try to reach you through your phone these few days, I can never get through?? Am I too irritating or what?? I don’t even call you or msg you like everyday…. When you first return to KL, you would make the effort to msg me or reply me when you have the time sending me msgs with “I miss you”…Now….I don even c a msg….When if I msg u, u take ages to reply me…Even if you are staying at your own hometown for good, can you just let me know?? Why do I get the feeling that you are avoiding me??? I certainly hope it’s just me thinking too much…I really don’t want to end up realizing that I have been fooled…I really don’t want to be the last one o know….I don’t…… I sometimes really wonder if you are really the one for me…. I sometimes even wonder if you are serious about me….People around me keep telling me to just break off….And that I am still young, I shouldn’t waste my youth on a 27year old, known to all as a fiery-tempered short guy and an international playboy from Malaysia…..I have already let you know that I don’t want to get cheated…..I am scared of getting hurt again…I know I am wrong for having so little trust in you…But couldn’t you at least show me that you care…..Assure me that you will not make the mistakes again rather than just telling me to avoid you like others just because I think you are a bad guy like the others. Can’t you even try to explain a little just to show me that you bother to explain because I have a place in your heart??? I really don’t understand…Why is it that you are so different from other guys??? Can’t you be a little more open towards me?? I don’t have the right to interfere your life….But don’t I even have the right to share your happiness and problems???? I don’t even understand you most of the time…I don’t even try to tie you to me….I know that you don’t intend to settle down.. and I am not even forcing you to accompany to walk through the rest of my life… All I hope for is only a very normal dating life…. I don’t want to be hiding… I don’t want to have a boyfriend but feel as if I don’t have one….. I really envy those couples wherever I see….They are so happy…They would hold hands in public, not worried to be seen,,,,, But us?? You don’t even dare to let me hold your arm in the MRT….I wasn’t even doing anything.. Just holding on to your arm…And all you tell me is, people are watching….Hello… Just tell me what’s wrong with me holding your arm in public?? I’m not even trying to smooch you in public….which I think I will never do….. You were never there when I needed you….. How I wish we could go back to the starting period when you will just accompany me for awhile under the blocks, lending me your ear about my problems…. I thank you for allowing me to kick off my ex off my mind…. Is it true that guys will just throw girls away when they get what they want or when they failed to get what they want from their target??? It makes me have the perception that there are no longer good guys in this world… Honestly, I no longer believe in true love…. I no longer plan of even getting married in future….. How I sometimes wish that love doesn’t exist…..I wish…….
These few days i din do anything in school except playing online games...lazy huh..........
These few days i din do anything in school except playing online games...lazy huh..........
Friday, June 23, 2006
wad the hell amn...i din even realise the chinese words i wrote afew days ago cannot be read.... Only those farney farney words came out...make me look like as if i'm scolding some vulgarities... I'm like so sian lo.... Today out of 24...only 16 came to class...change faci liao..sian...but hopefully this woman will give me better grades than that miss seow....the ex-stwardess and ex-lawyer....who gave me straught Cs...juz 'cuz i don talk cock....and that john young...who gave me a C juz b'cuz i din submit my RJ...haix...but today din do anything lo...i'm like really slacking the whole day...haix...don tell me i hab to continue lidat for 3 yrs????haix.....This morning when i'm in school i msg him what is he doing and he din reply me until like 5 plus..... All he told me was that he's sick and is resting at home and he have been taking medicine and sleeping all these while....I was like..Ar....Not again... I sometimes feel like is he sme kind of a sick chicken??Maybe i'm too sacarstic...although he may be my..ahem...boyfriend..but sometimes i really get so pissed off with him... he's like..jobless now... and how could he possibly get sick?? Before dat if he get sick i can assume dat..ok..it's due to his work..maybe he work too much and didn't take good care of himself...but now?? Honestly, i'm still not very happy with him gambling and end up owing people money....and he still dare to tell me dat he'll go back to Genting to try and recoup his loses...knowing very well that i'll get angry with him AGAIN..... Sometimes i wonder...did i even really scold him all these while..before that all i did was just grumble or keep quiet when i wasn't very happy.. but this gambling and owing people money and trying to recoup his loses thingy really cannot take it lo... I don wish to c him like my brother.... he use to bet on soccer and end up losing and owing people money... And those creditors always call up and look for him.... they even scold my mum lo..it's like...what has my bro owing u idiots money gt to do wib my mum???.... Even threaten my mum that if he doesn't pay up, they'll beat him to death.... Wad the F*** lo...... I really don wish to c him end up like my bro...though my bro now ok le....haix....headache..... I really don expect much from him lo.... even if he is fooling ard wib me...( i seriously hope not)I juz wish dat he's safe and happy..... hope he's still alright....Am looking forward to see him this or next weekend...hopefully... i miz him lyk hell.....
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
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Haiz....Back to school is so sian....First day of school i hab to do the ppt...damn sian lo...i don even know wad we r doing..it's like doing an aimless presentation....During the actual presentation, be the first grp也就算了...the 2 china students still can argue when it's their turn to present..pek chek lo....confirm get C liao....Yst oso...but i din do anything...Excel i dono how to use..den the ppt oso dono do wad....juz..haix...wad the hell la...today nv go sch....cnt wake up~but gd oso la...more slp for me....but confirm cnt let him know..if not he'll surely scold me until 臭头wan.....haiz..how i wish he is right here wib me..i'm missing him like hell.. haix.....wait wait wait................................
Sunday, June 18, 2006
男人心，海底深。。。。。 Isn't this so very true at times?? Haiz..though i'm hapy to hear his voice..but he really made me angry....bet on soccer ok..i can tahan if it's only a sall bet....but afetr he loose money here..he go back M'sia and went to Genting to gamble...wad the.....Gamble就算了 。。。还欠别人钱。。。Ah...I know he got nth to do except gamble now since he's out of job...but play play a little nvm...now he owe ppl money... haiz....so disappointed...but i'll be waiting for him to come back either tis coming weekend or the nxt weekend....hopefully i'll really get to c him tis time...
Yst went to watch Garfield 2 wib yin min and dat auntie yu xin.... i tot she really pregnant.... wib dat auntie top dat is so loose...plus her spare tyre..ha ha~~hopefully she wun really get pregnant and b more carefully when she's ~~ahem.....hee~~ah min gave me and her a necklae...simple but nice~hee~but dono wad's the occassion....ha ha~~thx aniway~
Today my god-sis de solemnization honestly is damn sian..shldn't hab gone...haiz...nearly bored to death....my day today is juz plain SIAN....haiz..today last day of my school haolidays le..so damn sian..there goes my holiday....had tot of going to KL to find him during the holidays..but didn't hab the time...so...haiz....算了。。。等他回来再说吧。。。。。。
Yst went to watch Garfield 2 wib yin min and dat auntie yu xin.... i tot she really pregnant.... wib dat auntie top dat is so loose...plus her spare tyre..ha ha~~hopefully she wun really get pregnant and b more carefully when she's ~~ahem.....hee~~ah min gave me and her a necklae...simple but nice~hee~but dono wad's the occassion....ha ha~~thx aniway~
Today my god-sis de solemnization honestly is damn sian..shldn't hab gone...haiz...nearly bored to death....my day today is juz plain SIAN....haiz..today last day of my school haolidays le..so damn sian..there goes my holiday....had tot of going to KL to find him during the holidays..but didn't hab the time...so...haiz....算了。。。等他回来再说吧。。。。。。
Thursday, June 15, 2006
~*~Feels gd to b dRunK....~*~
sometimes i really feel that it's better to b drunk...haben been sleeping well these days... juz finished one whole bottle of liquor....tink is i finish too fast so my face damn red.....now really feel like sleeping.... sometimes i wonder if i made the right decision about him.... i really feel hard to understand and trust him....he refuse to open up.....to him..it's no point explaining things....i really wonder juz wad am i to him....do i even hab a place in his heart.... shldn't he even try to explain things to me....i don expect much from him..i don even expect him to b by my side.... if he really treat me as his gf, shldn't he even say some things to let me feel assured.....let me hab he security dat i nid..... don't he even know dat no matter wad...i'm still a girl....i also nid someone to love and pamper at times..is dat even so hard for him..... all he tell me whenever we r on the fone is study hard....don't think so much.....long-dist calls are ex......juz wad is wrong?????All i nid is a guy hu likes me and i like for wad we both r.....all i nid is a companion........ he keep telling me dat we hab a gap...true enuf we do...i'm trying to mend the gap by trying to undrstand him.....i really is tryin...but wad abt him..i'm really tired.....can i juz let go and not tink abt such things anymore.........can i go on with my life w/o a guy.......can i juz continue wib a life of onli working and w/o relationships..can i................. i'm really lost..the whole world is askin me to ditch him.... but it's really not easy.... if it were dat easy i wld hab already let go....will i still wait till now... think i'm realy drunk le.......i really nid a break.....i nid a gd nite's slp......
i'm tired.................................................
i'm tired.................................................
Thursday, June 08, 2006
~*~sad sad days....~*~
these few days haben been good to me....so sick and tired of everyone forcing me to give him up... can they plz don force me... they r making me so frustrated wib them and myself.....i believe that evryone makes mistakes..but as long as he can change and n0t make the same mistake again~ i don y we shld avoid them.....sick and tired of trying to explain dat i hab NV done anything wib him on bed~y don she believe me??? Do i look so cheap???Does it mean that i like him so much i will let him have my whole body?????????? i'm so sian......i don to be crying myself to slp every nite b'coz of those forcing..... i relly wan to wait till he come back the end of the mth....i don ask for much.....y can't i juz choose to stay by his side....whether he has a wife in m'sia is not the issue....although i do believe a little that he made a woman pregnant and refuse to acknowledge the child.....dat is already his past....y wun anyone stand by me???y is it dat they don support me......but thanx to my ah min.....she's the only one supporting me...thank you mei~~ If u really make up ur mind to forget chun hwee~i'll support eu de~~
Friday, June 02, 2006
~*~Holiday!!~*~
Yst ah min damn farney...dono wad's wrong wib her....dono is think too much of her sunny le or really thinking of whether to buy the chain r some acessory or not.....we went down the escalator and she nearly went up again..hee~~~to think of it, it's damn farney~~ haha~~~Ah min....don b so blur le la....he~~
Today damn finally show my really buay song face to my class...Ma de...oways say me....muz b b'cuz i nv sho them dat i get angry oso dat's y they keep teasing me until today....as soon as i show dat face they diam qu~~~shuang...but still damn fed up..tml and sunday hab to work...monday got class outing as sentosa...wondering whether to go anot......sian.....haiz....waiting for that nan ren to come back....hopefully he put my aeroplane again...wonder how is he.... did he grow even thinner...had he grown any taller...which shld b impossible since he already 27....hmm...miz him....
Today damn finally show my really buay song face to my class...Ma de...oways say me....muz b b'cuz i nv sho them dat i get angry oso dat's y they keep teasing me until today....as soon as i show dat face they diam qu~~~shuang...but still damn fed up..tml and sunday hab to work...monday got class outing as sentosa...wondering whether to go anot......sian.....haiz....waiting for that nan ren to come back....hopefully he put my aeroplane again...wonder how is he.... did he grow even thinner...had he grown any taller...which shld b impossible since he already 27....hmm...miz him....
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
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I nv knew a guy can be so scary unti i met him... He knew i have a bf le but he still cling onto me like superglue lidat... scary..finally got him away from my side last nite..i replied him dat i thank for his concern but his concern is really freaking me out..i think i hurt him by saying dat...I don understand wad exactly did i do to make him get the wrong idea...i'm no chio bu, neither am i ladylike...wad "potential" does he c in me????wierdo....Anyway...I'm really happy dat i finally reached him...called him last nite but his pone was off...den called him again juz now..he finally pick up the phone le..so happy~~~but he told me to call him 20mins later coz he's packing up his stuff to leave his office...i wanted to call but my family is eating dinner...so sms him to tell him i'll call at 7... but i called before 7 so when he pick up, he was having tea with his colleague so he said he'll call me later when he's in his car... ard 7.30 he called...so happy to hear his voice...den w ended the call ard 8...though it's short but i'm contented to hear his voice...he said he confirm will look for me when he come back next week... and he said we'll go to the movies... :)
Now waiting for his reply on sms~~ :)
Now waiting for his reply on sms~~ :)
Thursday, May 25, 2006
~*~tOng b'Dae~*~
Yst went to Orchard after sch wib min,tong&wenqi den mit jie ying there...Went to Far East to walk walk....Den eat at Long John...Den saw one xiao mei mei~~damn cute...Lyk wan to play wib us..ha ha~~thinking of her pulling down her pants den pulling it back up while running to the toilet was damn funny~~~
After dat we went to Lucky Plaza to play pool~~ha ha~~first time c min and tong play~~ha ha~~don look lyk first timers lo..getting very much better...much much better dan me~~ha ha~~~ yst the balls lyk don listen to me~~ha ha~~Esp dat xiao bai~keep rolling into the hole~~ha ha~Den gt tis guy call kido~~dono how he play wan..can play until he bleed..ha ha~Very er xing....the blood flow...yucks...min say cnt even c the wound...He ask for plaster de tong oso gave him the whole pkt of tissue paper....her b'daegift~~gone~~ha ha~~
Before we left he approach us and ask for one of our number....Anyone of us..Den the rest of them juz turn.. i was the one standing juz next to him lo...so end up i gave him my number...the rest...no nid to say le........
I miz him!!!!Ahh!!!!Not yst dat guy.....is my nan ren......sunday....sunday..sunday.....
After dat we went to Lucky Plaza to play pool~~ha ha~~first time c min and tong play~~ha ha~~don look lyk first timers lo..getting very much better...much much better dan me~~ha ha~~~ yst the balls lyk don listen to me~~ha ha~~Esp dat xiao bai~keep rolling into the hole~~ha ha~Den gt tis guy call kido~~dono how he play wan..can play until he bleed..ha ha~Very er xing....the blood flow...yucks...min say cnt even c the wound...He ask for plaster de tong oso gave him the whole pkt of tissue paper....her b'daegift~~gone~~ha ha~~
Before we left he approach us and ask for one of our number....Anyone of us..Den the rest of them juz turn.. i was the one standing juz next to him lo...so end up i gave him my number...the rest...no nid to say le........
I miz him!!!!Ahh!!!!Not yst dat guy.....is my nan ren......sunday....sunday..sunday.....
Monday, May 22, 2006
22ndMay2006
He finally "reappeared" again today le...He called me when i went to the toilet in sch...And he changd number without even letting me know until today...I tot he don wan me le...when i told him dat he replied me that if he don wan me he will say de..He told me his new job very stressand he may not stay long... and dat he's v sian there coz he don hab much frens...i can't do anything since i don dare take bus go in myself....even if i dare now is still sch days so can't go oso...too bad can't pe him....i'm missing him like shit.....2mths going 3mths nv c him le..hopefully he'll spare 1 or 2 hrs this sunday to pei wo a while when he come in to work...dono is it the 3rd or 4th of June is M'sia de public holiday....oso the first day of my holiday...really hope to see him...miss his perfume...miss his hugs..haiz...can do nth but miss..went to westmall and lot1 juz now wib yin min...i can't find a single pair of lack pants dat i like lo...it's either too ex or too big...XXXL...wear liao sure drop..ha ha....tml UT..damn sian...haiz..Enterprise.....double sin...miss today Danz Fusion de audition..heard alot of ppl went...but anyway..still waiting for Iko to set up her hip hop IG..rreally need to move a little..if not i'll grow fatter and fatter...scared later he don wan me den wd am i suppose to do??ha ha...better go slp early liao~~ha ha.....ENDz.....
Sunday, May 21, 2006
I'm back...
Finally back to blogging....Been ard 1 mth plus after sch re-open le...sch hav bee ok but i still can't quite adapt to the system...still the same old loner dt i had always been...am i very hard to get long???or is it the fact dat i hab tis "stinky" face dat scares ppl away...dono la.....and i haben seen him for lyk...3mths....miz him alot....thanx to yin min....she fa hua chi den pass it to me..end up i oso fa...he shld be coming back these few days and hopefully will get to see him...Bought him 2 pair of thongs for his birthday....but kinda regret getting them...the cloth covering his "manhood" is erm..orange and the back has only one elastic band covering...to tink of it the colour is quite disgusting..but it's something new ba...usual price was $19.90 but after discount was $15 plus...hopefully i can grow to trust him over some time...I don wish to carry on lidat w/o much trust for him....although he did ask me to not consider him if i were to find a guy who treats me better,i can't seem to set my eyes on any other guy...how i wish i could let him know how i actually feel but seems impossible...i don dare to say anything for fear that he will flare up...since it's a known fact that he has a bad temper...hope that e will rmb to look for me when he comes back...quite long nv contact..wonder if he's all well....feel lyk calling him but scared dat i'll disturb him...haiz....
Waiting for my bro to buy hm our dinner...dono where he go buy....he called and say that he'll be late for an hr...wonder if he go JB buy dat Nasi Lemak....haiz....Dying of hunger...I NEED MY FOOD!!!!
Waiting for my bro to buy hm our dinner...dono where he go buy....he called and say that he'll be late for an hr...wonder if he go JB buy dat Nasi Lemak....haiz....Dying of hunger...I NEED MY FOOD!!!!
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