Why is it that whenever I try to reach you through your phone these few days, I can never get through?? Am I too irritating or what?? I don’t even call you or msg you like everyday…. When you first return to KL, you would make the effort to msg me or reply me when you have the time sending me msgs with “I miss you”…Now….I don even c a msg….When if I msg u, u take ages to reply me…Even if you are staying at your own hometown for good, can you just let me know?? Why do I get the feeling that you are avoiding me??? I certainly hope it’s just me thinking too much…I really don’t want to end up realizing that I have been fooled…I really don’t want to be the last one o know….I don’t…… I sometimes really wonder if you are really the one for me…. I sometimes even wonder if you are serious about me….People around me keep telling me to just break off….And that I am still young, I shouldn’t waste my youth on a 27year old, known to all as a fiery-tempered short guy and an international playboy from Malaysia…..I have already let you know that I don’t want to get cheated…..I am scared of getting hurt again…I know I am wrong for having so little trust in you…But couldn’t you at least show me that you care…..Assure me that you will not make the mistakes again rather than just telling me to avoid you like others just because I think you are a bad guy like the others. Can’t you even try to explain a little just to show me that you bother to explain because I have a place in your heart??? I really don’t understand…Why is it that you are so different from other guys??? Can’t you be a little more open towards me?? I don’t have the right to interfere your life….But don’t I even have the right to share your happiness and problems???? I don’t even understand you most of the time…I don’t even try to tie you to me….I know that you don’t intend to settle down.. and I am not even forcing you to accompany to walk through the rest of my life… All I hope for is only a very normal dating life…. I don’t want to be hiding… I don’t want to have a boyfriend but feel as if I don’t have one….. I really envy those couples wherever I see….They are so happy…They would hold hands in public, not worried to be seen,,,,, But us?? You don’t even dare to let me hold your arm in the MRT….I wasn’t even doing anything.. Just holding on to your arm…And all you tell me is, people are watching….Hello… Just tell me what’s wrong with me holding your arm in public?? I’m not even trying to smooch you in public….which I think I will never do….. You were never there when I needed you….. How I wish we could go back to the starting period when you will just accompany me for awhile under the blocks, lending me your ear about my problems…. I thank you for allowing me to kick off my ex off my mind…. Is it true that guys will just throw girls away when they get what they want or when they failed to get what they want from their target??? It makes me have the perception that there are no longer good guys in this world… Honestly, I no longer believe in true love…. I no longer plan of even getting married in future….. How I sometimes wish that love doesn’t exist…..I wish…….
These few days i din do anything in school except playing online games...lazy huh..........
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