I sometimes wonder... Are all the things in our life predestinated or can we change our fate with our own hands??? Sometimes i feel that some things are fated to be....And sometimes, things can go the other way round if we were to try to change it...I sometimes can't help but wonder...Is me meeting him fated or can i change my own fate....He's in Singapore le...And i know he's very frustrated about his job-hunting..He had apologised to me for puttng me aside all these while....At least i feel relieved that he did realise he had neglected me all these while.... I sometimes really feel useless....I know he's frustrated and i can't help him..All he told me was to study hard as it is important..Well, of course i know the importance of studies but i simply hate studying and he knows it.... But at least i did not give up going to school...At least i chose to continue my studies in a polytechnic and didn't just stop at O'levels....I always have the feeling that we will not last and i'm kinda prepared for it... I know he's afraid of commitment and i won't expect him to do so....Sometimes i wonder if it's better for us to not have that "bf,gf"thingy....i wonder if it's better for us to be just normal friends..maybe this way, we are happier.... but everyone knows..it's hard......damn hard.......


Today damn cham...dono wad's wrong wib myself..keep having mood swing............Before leaving school still "hai" le xiu hui lose her RJ...so sorry babe~~~Tml got UT....Retest somemore.....sian...haiz...go back to my movie...... "The King And The Clown"...Lee Joon Ki damn pretty la...ha ha~~~....Endz.....