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Farking fed up with this kind of living environment...That is living in an evironment full of restrictions...And i mean FULL...Wad's wrong with watching the TV and doing my RJ at the same time...SHE just enjoy asking me "Are you watching that?"....Or SHE'll go "You watch that?" when i'm watching some korean drama on a weekend...It doesn't mean that i don't understand, i can't watch...And i just find it wierd listening to them speak in chinese when the way the chinese is sub in is so fake...Isn't listening to them speak in Korean more natural?...Whatever i do, i must think alot alot of times..."Will she like it?".."Will she say anything??"..."Will she give my mum more stress by complaining about me and my dad???"....Restrictions restrictions...The volume of the TV cannot be so loud... And wad's with the "I'm sorry, we forgot about you..." thingy... WTF...I so big human walking about in the streets and u see me like everyday, you cn forget about me?...And the sad thing is...Even my brother forgets about me...So sad la...Now..Even if i need a brother's shoulder to len on...I don't get to...All my brothers' shouldrs have their wife's nd kids and family burden on them..How can i even bear to add on to their weight?...Even friends...Sometimes when i need someone to tlk to, i really dono who to turn to..Even if i have someone to talk to..I dono how to spell everything out...Think i'm better off alone...Sine i'm USED TO BE FORGOTTEN BY EVERYONE...Eveyone makes new friends..Me too...But friends i made now are more like when we are together, we re good..But everything changes after the "ByeBye"....How i wished i was born 10yrs earlier..If i was, i would be 28 now..Probably getting married or is already married...Or probably not married but having a nice career...Probably....And probably not.... <br>


HER DEFINITION OF LOUD=OUR DEFINITION OF NORMAL



Like thank you so much god...I'm sick AGAIN... So sad...I'm beginning to go back to my "hua chi" days... A simple word like "Miss ya" from him can make my heart melt... Oh my...



Next Thursday Reuben got tickets to MOS de party...Free de...But hor..Still need to come up cab fare....Dono wan to go anot...Thinkng of HuiWen becoming an ADDICT to clubbing makes me feel...Wierd...It's like...She's no longer the HuiWen i use to know..Ok..My own fault...Haven't been contacting her since dono how many donkey years...Have to admit...I'm lazy...BOrn a loner...Live like a loner...Die a loner....hmm...Shld i go?Or not?Think about it first....


Want to sign up for Basic Theory and the wireless broadband thingy..But i'm broke broke broke.... Trying to scrimp to survive till the end of the month..Hopefully i'll get some comission...Hopefully i'll get at least $500 altogether....Can only pray that my sales will be good...Paragon...Got nth to say...Take..Sian...Hopefully they will give me abit of the comission from Taka Square ba....I don't mind working full-load...But please give me what i deserve....


NUF SAID