Friday, August 08, 2008

Unsecured...

As much as i try to go to sleep now..
I simply can't...
The reason?
Simple..
Him..
I fucking unsecure and i hate this stupid feeling i'm having now..
I doesn't help that i don't think he even realises how insecure his gf is...
And how crazy his gf actually is...
I think he'd freak out when he realises..
Yes yes..
I'm eccentric..
I know..
Everyone knows
How crazy can my thinking go?
I have no idea...
As much as i know...
My mind is full of nothing but rubbish....
Had been crapping the whole nite with Mr J...
Another Mr J...
Not my boy..
As my boy is sleeping..
I seriously felt like a bithch
Although i meant to be only joking around..
And Mr J doesn't mind..
So...Ya...
I asked myself...
When was the last time i laughed so wildly..
The answer...
When he and i were watching KungFu Panda alone...
And tht was before we got together...
I just want to be happy..
Is it tht hard?
All i ever wanted was a guy i could totally trust and rely on...

Doubt i'd be able to sleep well tonight...
Might as well then...
Shall continue watching my Californication...
Erase him off my mind...
At least for the next few hours till i feel sleepy...
Ciao...

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