~*~tOng b'Dae~*~

Yst went to Orchard after sch wib min,tong&wenqi den mit jie ying there...Went to Far East to walk walk....Den eat at Long John...Den saw one xiao mei mei~~damn cute...Lyk wan to play wib us..ha ha~~thinking of her pulling down her pants den pulling it back up while running to the toilet was damn funny~~~
After dat we went to Lucky Plaza to play pool~~ha ha~~first time c min and tong play~~ha ha~~don look lyk first timers lo..getting very much better...much much better dan me~~ha ha~~~ yst the balls lyk don listen to me~~ha ha~~Esp dat xiao bai~keep rolling into the hole~~ha ha~Den gt tis guy call kido~~dono how he play wan..can play until he bleed..ha ha~Very er xing....the blood flow...yucks...min say cnt even c the wound...He ask for plaster de tong oso gave him the whole pkt of tissue paper....her b'daegift~~gone~~ha ha~~
Before we left he approach us and ask for one of our number....Anyone of us..Den the rest of them juz turn.. i was the one standing juz next to him lo...so end up i gave him my number...the rest...no nid to say le........
I miz him!!!!Ahh!!!!Not yst dat guy.....is my nan ren......sunday....sunday..sunday.....

22ndMay2006

He finally "reappeared" again today le...He called me when i went to the toilet in sch...And he changd number without even letting me know until today...I tot he don wan me le...when i told him dat he replied me that if he don wan me he will say de..He told me his new job very stressand he may not stay long... and dat he's v sian there coz he don hab much frens...i can't do anything since i don dare take bus go in myself....even if i dare now is still sch days so can't go oso...too bad can't pe him....i'm missing him like shit.....2mths going 3mths nv c him le..hopefully he'll spare 1 or 2 hrs this sunday to pei wo a while when he come in to work...dono is it the 3rd or 4th of June is M'sia de public holiday....oso the first day of my holiday...really hope to see him...miss his perfume...miss his hugs..haiz...can do nth but miss..went to westmall and lot1 juz now wib yin min...i can't find a single pair of lack pants dat i like lo...it's either too ex or too big...XXXL...wear liao sure drop..ha ha....tml UT..damn sian...haiz..Enterprise.....double sin...miss today Danz Fusion de audition..heard alot of ppl went...but anyway..still waiting for Iko to set up her hip hop IG..rreally need to move a little..if not i'll grow fatter and fatter...scared later he don wan me den wd am i suppose to do??ha ha...better go slp early liao~~ha ha.....ENDz.....

I'm back...

Finally back to blogging....Been ard 1 mth plus after sch re-open le...sch hav bee ok but i still can't quite adapt to the system...still the same old loner dt i had always been...am i very hard to get long???or is it the fact dat i hab tis "stinky" face dat scares ppl away...dono la.....and i haben seen him for lyk...3mths....miz him alot....thanx to yin min....she fa hua chi den pass it to me..end up i oso fa...he shld be coming back these few days and hopefully will get to see him...Bought him 2 pair of thongs for his birthday....but kinda regret getting them...the cloth covering his "manhood" is erm..orange and the back has only one elastic band covering...to tink of it the colour is quite disgusting..but it's something new ba...usual price was $19.90 but after discount was $15 plus...hopefully i can grow to trust him over some time...I don wish to carry on lidat w/o much trust for him....although he did ask me to not consider him if i were to find a guy who treats me better,i can't seem to set my eyes on any other guy...how i wish i could let him know how i actually feel but seems impossible...i don dare to say anything for fear that he will flare up...since it's a known fact that he has a bad temper...hope that e will rmb to look for me when he comes back...quite long nv contact..wonder if he's all well....feel lyk calling him but scared dat i'll disturb him...haiz....
Waiting for my bro to buy hm our dinner...dono where he go buy....he called and say that he'll be late for an hr...wonder if he go JB buy dat Nasi Lemak....haiz....Dying of hunger...I NEED MY FOOD!!!!

||Notz||

Givin up is an option,
Not a must...
Regret is a may not,
Not a must not...
Meetin sum1 is fate,
Not destiny...
Fallin fer sum1 is natural,
Not man-made...
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Y is it dat human hab to go thru relationships?And y is it dat none of mine end up the way i had wished it to?I'm beginnin to lose confidence in such things though i fall fer 1 easily...haiz....dono wad to say la...
Exam cummin le..still can't study....HAIZ~~~ So frustrated ar~~~~~

.+.NeW mTh's ResOlUtIoN.+.

haiz...hab been lyka "hua chi" for the past few mths...finally hab a decision le... rather den sinkin deeper in to dat shit...decided to cum out le...to GIVE UP! haiz... wonder how long i'll take to cum out of this stupid mess i've made... wonderin y i made this choice?? I'm nt sure if i made the right choice to gip up..but i'm sure if i don get out now..i'll go boonkers sooner or later~ If a person hab u in his or her heart,he or she will surely make the effort to at least contact u no matter how bz he or she is..rite? 1wk plus..nt even a msg..wth man... make me feel lyk an idiot..make me feel lyk a puppet bein toyed wib...damn sian lo...dono izit my life is lidat or by pure coin cidence dat all guys i mit r lidat... i'm kinda used to b toyed by guys but i juz can't let go easily...mayb it's my stupid prob ba...i fall fer sum1 easily but i can't realli let go...Sian ar... Gd thing is i wun c him for the next 2 wks since i'm not workin... but juz how long will i take to heal my wound this time round... seems lyk i always nid 2 yrs to totaly heal~haiz...is fate toyin me oso?... haiz... chou nan ren...seems lyk wadever he had done..cnt b undone le...gd thing is dat at least there is a limit to wad he does..if nt..haiz...
Anyway..dat stupid,idiotic,stinking,act cute buay cute,sickening,pinkyman..Boris called me juz now...wtf sia...ask me whether i can work today anot...siao eh...tink i superwoman ar..no nid do hmwork de ar...he use dat..e e e e...sissy voice of his n "sai nai,sai nai" so er xin!!! yucks..thinkin of dat voice make me wan to vomit out my dinner out~my chicken wing!!! omGosh! Yuckie man~juz can't stand him... Wonder y Auntie Wendy say he handsome leh~~~ Mayb generation gap ba..but no nid so BIG gap ba?! haiz..wdever la...nth to type le la....