Duh...
Just another day right...
Gone are the days in school when we would make fun of each other on this day..
how i miss the days..
Right now i'm just another pathetic soul trying hard to sleep better..
I think i'm really suffering from insomnia...
Cannot get myself to even doze off before 5am..
To think i nearly dozed off while working today..
Making matters worse..
I've got to work from wednesday to friday..
YES..Everyday...
And school is like starting next monday..
Really no motivation to go to school..
HAIX...
The number of fickle minded people nowadays are increasing in an alarming rate..I have at least 2 which i'm pretty sure are of such a character..These 2 are one of the closest people to me during this holiday period...And i haven't been really close to people for a long long time...When was the last time i had so much interaction with my friends..I really can't remember..But these 2 friends of mine are really...The cause of my blood vomiting experiences...I haven't really vomited blood yet,and i said YET...The day could be drawing nearer...As a friend, i don't wish to see my friends suffering because of guys...And making matters worse...They are no good guys....Is it really true that girls prefer bad guys to good ones??I really don't know..I'm a girl, but i don't have the answer...Knowing that this guy is not the one that you can live with in future, and already having a boyfriend whom you already had made plans to marry...Why the need to find someone else when this person is away from you for a period of time..I understand the emptiness within the heart, but that is not an excuse to find someone to fill up the emptiness...I never like this kind of girls yet i have a friend in such a situation...Am in no position to do anything yet i really cannot just stand beside and do nothing...I feel for the guy...If i were that i guy, i bet i'd take my life if things are going worse...Imagine the pain you have to go through when you are slogging somewhere trying to "stay alive",not having the chance to even see your supposed love one only to find out later that she's enjoying her new company and might not even having you in her heart...How does it feel...I did what i can to stop a scenario like this from happening but i doubt i have the ability...Even resort to risking the friendship between me and her juzt to try to pull her back to where she is suppose to be...I don wish for my friend to sacrifice her future like this...As for the other, who isn't attached but still clinging onto a guy whom has a girlfriend...I can only say it takes time...Takes time to forget takes time to get over...Takes time to brainwash yourself...I'm not a good friend but i definitely wish for the best to my friends whether or not they see me as someone important or just someone being randomly picked out from a pile of friends...
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