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I'm so damn bored...haiz...nv hear from him the whole day...gettin into a deeper shit everyday...haiz...when i don c him,i miz him...when i c him..can't tok to him...can't realli grab hold of myself...can't realli think properly... mayb i realli shldn't hab fallen 4 him..wad if he turns out to b foolin ard...wad if lyk xin says...he's married?. haiz....even worse..wib kids...haiz... I realli wan to ask him wad he is thinkin...wad am i to him? Juz a little sister...a friend....a colleague...a "daughter"??? haiz...seems lyk he is the onli one who noes the ans... Gt a lot of scares from frens....Xin told me he may b hidin alot of things from me... Qi told me a fren of hers said he's a flirt...gt gf summore...I wonder if he realli did tell me the truth...He don nid to lie abt anything i suppose..But he once told me he live in Woodlands but end up tellin me he actualli live beside woodlands...[In other words...JB...] Auntie said he may wan "dat thing".... and even said if 1 day i realli gave it to him,gip her a choc to let her noe...and i went..OMG!...Y do i feel dat i'm a little "easy" when i'm wib him?? Very unlike me... I'm told dat when guys kiss n lick a girl's neck...it means they wan it...dono whether true anot...But seems lyk i hab no strong feelings....juz a little but not strong... Auntie says i'm abnormal?... Am i? hmm...Veli scared...haiz.....