Its been a year...

It's been a whole year since I last updated...
Well.. slightly more than a year I should say...
I should probably revamp it and get my ranting area up again..

Lots of things that had happened in the past year...
Planned and those caught me unprepared..


Summarizing...

First, My love life....

A number of guys came and go throughout this whole period...

I've given up on a few... let go of a few...

Mostly moved on with their lives,with a new love interest (and mostly are happily attached)

I'm happy for them honestly...

It wasn't fair for them to go on waiting for me...

Since I wasn't prepared for a new one...

Or rather..

I'm just afraid to step into a new relationship..

A few needed wives than a girlfriend..

And hopefully they had found the one...

The one that suits their qualities of a wife..far better than me..

In anyway,all the best for them..

Secondly, My friends...

At age 24..(mostly)

most are getting hitched in these months...

Some have already walked through the chapel with the one,  entering another phase of life...

Some... getting prepared...

With all the wedding photos and posts on Facebook on their preparation....

Getting their keys to their new home...

Some already bringing another new life into the world...

Including the one that walked through 3years of my life with me...

Having his baby due in January 2013... setting up his family...

I'm glad he's living the life he wants now... honestly... no sour grapes...

Never regretted having him in my life and neither have I regretted giving up on our supposed path to old age together..

As the saying goes...  "Don't live in regrets"

AND I did... :)

He was all I ever needed... someone who loved me wholeheartedly..

All I could say is.. All the best.. my beloved of 3 years...

Lastly, My life...as a whole...

Family issues...

The main 'event that happened...

My mum was diagnosed with cervical cancer...

Refusing to undergo themotheraphy scares me...

I'm afraid... of losing her... too soon...

But all I'm hoping is that she'd be happy and stay that way... even till the day she is to leave us...

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School.... I'm back at it...

.Never a fan of books....

But now that I'm at it.....

I'm to get it done....

Towards my degree...

Which had always been an aim in my life...

Till then.... I'm hoping for things to go smoothly....

At work as well...

Gotta be prepared for the turn of events set to happen pretty soon...

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That'd be it.... a short summary of how my life has been....

Now.... I should go on looking for a new template for my blog....

Should any blog walkers have any suggestions, feel free to let me know... :)


probably with a theme...

A phrase on my mind right now....

"Life is not a bed of roses'

Should hit my sack now....

Till then.... good Night my dear visitors...if theres any.... :)
penna was here

Rants...

After last night I realized...

We are both no longer the same person we use to know...

Thinkings change as people grow...

I changed.. So I shouldn't be surprised that you changed too..

Seeing you holding on to another's hands and waist...

Honestly, just made me feel weird..

Probably was the closeness that we use to have for so long..

And the picture which i would have to face one day surfaced last night..

Caught me unprepared..

Maybe it's because I haven't fully got over it yet even though it was my choice...

But I have never regretted making that step...

Haiz...

D e c I s I o n s

Should I or should I not....

Richness or Poverty..

Which would u choose?

Being rich would mean having to swallow my dignity and may never be happy..

Staying in poverty would mean having to crack my brains every now and then to think of ways to solve the problems..

If u were me.. Which would u choose?

Happy happy

So glad to see him after 3 months...

Can finally spend some time alone..

Though timing is short n I smell like BBQ

But he delivered his promise to bring me to eat wat I wanted..

It's not e best.. But for time tgt.. It's still worth it..

:)))

Too happy to slp right now..

:)))))

I am back.....Hopefully

Everythings gone...

Gave up my boyfriend

Gave up my job..

Lost in life...

In a life hell full of debts..

I miss someone like seriously..

But i guess i was just a toy to him..

Fell for the wrong person and giving up the right one..

I'm just a bitch..

Had a boyfriend who loved me whole heartedly..

But i fooled around after the break up..

I'm a butterfly..

As what he said..

We are just not meant to be...

I had no regrets though...

Only thing is..

I'm wrong to hurt him like that..

And i'm remourseful..

Just hope he could think and turn for the better..

There's no turning back right now..

And i have no intention to turn back..

At least anytime soon..

As for the bunch of jerks....

As they are labeled as..

Are just to kill my time...

They are just nothing..

Probably the few that showed "care and concern"

Whether just faking or are real..

Could continue to be friends..

The rest..

Seriously..

Fuck off...

Going for a few interview tomorrow..

Hopefully i can start afresh and get out of this shit soon...

I've got sleeping company tommorrow.. :)

Hopefully nothing will happen between us..

He's the exact clone of me..

Same mindset..

Same shit life we went through..

But he's more cheerful..

Unlike me..

Negative Minded...

Hopefully he could enlighten me and brighten my life a little..

Shall move on to update my online business now.... :)

Which i hope could pick up...

penna was here